My health is deteriorating...sigh.

What's wrong with me...?

Amazing,

realizing how fast time flies...

just hope time can fly in jet planes; hoping i need not to suffocate myself in any of these any longer....

Soon I'll be venturing my life in another new path..

Starting everything newly....

Let's just hope things will turn out all right......

Faith is all i can count on now..*i think*

signing off,

Viv

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but what if we are just fooling ourselves ...when things just end up the bloody way?

pieces of memories

and i realised the only person that really says he'll always be there, is the one that i've known long ago...but there's no more turning back ... we just gotta open our eyes big enuf to see what kind of person we're into don't we? rather than, telling ourselves lies after lies just to make ourselves better of the path we've choosen. we're just learnin our way in life... it sucks!

life just wouldn't stop fucking us...neverending.......

Viv

hello boredom

talking about boredom...urgh. Recently, am finding so many things to do for me to fill my oh so free holiday. sadly, i'm just tooo lazy to do the things that i'm supposed to be doing that's packing my things..which i've been planning to do for the last few weeks. haha. Mess is all i can say about my life now. fml.

half done=)

oh btw, this is one of the little things i did=) puzzle! the qi-kek-ness of doin puzzle haha. the satisfaction i get after getting it done is just so pleasing... but it does take up lots n lotsa patience.. sis and i did the above puzzle...

people did so many things wrong that they are not aware of,

they just need others to hit them on their head to make them realized it.

however,

it doesn't mean it's that easily to get things back to normal after realizing it....

it's easily said; but not easily done...

all the best to all...

love,

Viv.

Maggi Chicken Stalk

I was shopping in carrefour with my mom tis afternoon..and we saw smtg really umm...funny heh.

mom wanted to buy chicken stalk..but then Maggi had 3 similar types of chicken stalk. the only different thing is they're in different language @.@

mom was wondering whats the difference between these 3...

and this was what i told her..

Viv: the mandarin one...is for chinese...the Bm oneee is for malays...the english one...is for those that duno mandarin n malay..hahahaa....(jokingly..ofcuz)

can anyone tell me whr cn i get a necklace like tis??

The night we climb up

The night we sat together..

looking upon the lights of the city..

looking upon the the city..

while others are in their dreamland.

hand in hand...

we sat there..

We talked throughout the night..

We talked about our lives...

We talked about how we want our lives to be..

hand in hand..

we talked throughout the night.

The calmness in my heart is indescribable

my heart beats beat by beat...

It felt so calm as i sat right beside you...

but underneath that calmness

hides the fear..

of you leaving

hand in hand we sat..

the stars upon us shone bright ...

as we looked at the lights of the city...

The memory

you gave me can never be shade away..

beneath this smile

hides the tears..

in this cold night..

i wished you're right beside me as how you did that night..

the warmth..

the memories..

Will there be any chance for this memory to go on...?

as long as possible...

I hope....

I'm having some kinda of brain-clogged these few weeks/days...sigh

So many things are popping in my mind...it's sooo congested now...i can't even think properly anymore. i need to find something peaceful to do..something that can really calm meself...heeelp!

this week is just pain in the ass! no...it's ten times worst than that.

monday- physics4 and maths 7 aka stats

wednesday- chemistry 4

friday-physics 1.

the worst is having that 2 blardy science together.

i'm having sleep deprived!

i can't blardy sleep!

my head just coudlnt' stop turning...

my heart beats tremendously fast...

my body is dying...physically i'm sooooo bloody tired~!!!!

other than my studies, my head my mind just couldn't stop thinking of that thing tat haf been bothering me for months!fml...

i juts hope to stop the time and lemme get things done! wtf..

having everything half hanging is just soooo stressfull...especially on the things i care much for...

if things just can't be done, i rather stop watever connection i haf with it. sigh..

but i'm nt willing to let gooooo.......wtf

i need my sleeep.......................just stop my head from thinking when i slp pleaseee.........!!!!

Portray a smile, a sincere smile

Portray laughters, a sincere laughter

Say things as you mean it, to gain sincerity of others

Do as you say you will, to gain trust.

Once a promise;sincerity is not done or trust,

things will not be the same for the days ahead....

i've told myself today am nt supposed to feel any negativity

even tho if it's nt wat i feel happy about...

but.....

remember the previous post i posted about hw happy i was when i received this from my roommie?

well......

my roommie's gonna be so so so disappointed with me when she sees this..

i accidentally knocked down my water bottle and my water bottle hit it...

soo...

it turned out this way =( >>>>

trippo !

dang! The recent exam is definitely getting my head upside-down. not only my head but my health and....my room! omfg! my room!

This, is not my bed nor izit my clothes rack, but my roommie's. know why i post hers?

simply because, mine looks soo much teruk than hers!=(

anywhoo, you can't blame me for not cleaning slash pack my room. exam laar..i gotta pay 101% on my studies!* innocent smile* besides, i DID sweep and mop the floor last week. i think that's good enuf. talking about exam, hmm i just sat for my chemistry ppr2 and ppr 5. i won't say it's that easy nor will i say it's killing. overall was alll...ryte.. there are definitely few sub-questions here and thr tat i do not know , but i think i did pretty well to get a better result compare to the last time i took for chem2. ppr5.? well..it's easier than wat i expected =) yay me!

oh since that chem2 is oveer..i'm kinda relax nw, tho...the important and killing ones are due NEXT week. all together. KILL ME would you. oh due to the super streess and tension i had for chem2 n 5, i slpt at 7 morning, and woke up at 1230 prepared myself for 215 ppr. sooo, after ppr5 i've slpt fer...more 12 hrs i think. omg! since 730 til nxt morning...9 plus. heh. but, hello, am nt tat pig-like, i did wake up btw the hrs. so i dun think it's tat bad. hehe.

compare to yeo liren! i'm considered good. he slpt at the same time as me, but continue slping for 4-5 hrs after 2 -3 hrs of waking up. honestly, i think..he was borned a pig in his past life. haha. a fat one! know why? well, he's tat skinny now, like really...skeleton-like skinny, so i think God decided to take away all his fats from his past life hence, made him tis skinny! *evil laughter*

i know, it's nt tat funny=(

oh oh cha yee broke her sandals ystd.. by..i don't know how she did it.aha.sandals broke, slipper stolen..tat means...shopping!! yay us!

we just can't wait for the exam to end....we'll shop til we drop and and mr yeo liren wiill be our loyal driver to bring us thr? puuhhhleasssee??

neways..no matter if he will fetch or nt, we girls will be going for shopping for sure!!

ahh! the exam streesss is killin all of us inside. and..cha's craving to club is gettin' higher and higher...and and she's influencing us!! clubheads? no we're not..it'd been a vry vry long time since the last time we went kay....enuf said!

recently, i've been gettin soo many scars =(.

i have a few on both my knees, and also a bruise on my right knee and...i got a scratch on my finger..for hangin my clothes on the hanger! =( *sobs*

it hurts when i bathe...

oH! have i mentioned that my current desire now is..........

3

2

1!

leaving my hair reli reli long!! dang ~ well...as long as i had it when i was in hmm..form 4?

yaya..tat long..or mayb longer!=) don't ask me why such a sudden..i just felt like it. i envy those girls with long long hair...they hav the patience to wait.

i've been having tis short hair for quite some time. it's time for a change baby! yeah! =P wish me luck!

this is me. at my current length=(

yea i know, loooooong way to go for my hair to be looooong

and also..i also want a wardrobe change.double dang!*dang dang!* heh..

P/s: i'm nt gonna whine about how horrible my days have been..

i'm not gonna complain about how unfair life is towards me

i'm not gonna brag about how terrible is my prob and your(anyone, ain't pointing my fingers on anyone) prob is..

i'm gonna say....

today, i'm gonna blog on a happy post!! cuz i want myself to be happy rather than bloggin on those emo shit posts! * smilessss*

i don't care how unfair is my life doing to me, well atleast for now slash today

i am gonna be happy! *smiles again!*

cuz

i don't know how emo shit will i get. my emotions are smtg like ridding a roller coaster. one word- SCARY !!! booo me.. FYI, i'm freaking scared of roller coasters. unfortunately.=( but i'd try.. one or two..or mayb 3

anywayss....

mmhmm mmhmmm....i'm gonna put a smile today!=D

life will never be fine to you everyday; every minute.

why do we want to torture ourselves with the frown??

we still gotta live tru it anyways..

so why not put a smile while facing your problems? =)

Unable to .....

THANK YOU

ROOMMIEEEEeeeee.........

=D

A Little gift from my dearest roommie, sharon=)

She's sooo sweet! she made tis herself!=)

hahaa..i'm loveeed.. heh..

I wasn't who i am today

I never cared about the little things I cared now

I never was the person that actually put so much sensitivity over things that I am now sensitive about

What is/are the reason(s) for me being who I am now?

What is/are the reason(s) for me acting this way?

Clearly,

I know why....

But

Why am I turning my back over it?

Keeping it quiet and dark as I hope it will be...

but

the fact; the truth is there...

no matter how dark and hidden i put it,

I'll always see it clear and bright....

that's life

we can never turn our backs on it...

no matter how hidden we want it to be,

one day, it'll hit back on us saying" hello, again"

over and over and over again....

Hence,

we can never feel the purely happy

AHH...screw it..

29th October 2009....

Having just 1 hour plus of sleep; getting up preparing myself for my Chemistry Practical exam is definitely a no-no to do..

Yes! night or should i say, morning before my Chemistry Practical exam was hooorrible! i couldn't sleep, but my body was alarmin me telling me " LET ME REST!!!" my mind, " no! im stil so fresh!" boo hoo! body and mind just couldn't work together that day=(

so, i ended up sleeping at 740 waking up at 10! damn~~ 1130 was my exam...

However!

I THANK cambridge for being so so understanding,hehe..the exam wasn't that torturing unlike the the first time i took it. yes! sadly, i resit my chmi ppr....lets just hope i wont screw up tis time...

after the ppr...

duno who who who...i couldn't remember was it liren or was it cha yee that suggest or was it me?? newaysss...one of us suggested to go kl for lunch~=)

yeap! we went thr...and i was a-ooo--kay with it altho i was yawning almost the whole day ..heh.

went to Tokyo g for lunch

oH! did i mention that i met sonia thr?? finally!! after so so so long and so so so many times of wanting to meet up thr...we finally did=)

sonia came over to meet us. heh.. cha and liren was shoooo shy~ i think.=P

we talked, but just for awhile as sonia gotta leave at 5 plus and we're heading to the cinema fer...

Jennifer's boday~ woohoo...

the movie wasn't that whoaaa-ish was wat the media said it wud be.. but overall not bad.

megan fox's shooo hawt! heh...

went back inti right after the movie as all 3 of

us was so dead tired. i was already dying with tears.....yawn too many times d=( haha!

I admit! i cannot live without going out! even when i am nt supposed to!=(

hehe...

Things wasn't running smooth recently..have been really upset over lotsa stuff...

Everything seem sooo wrong...as in really really wrong..! i couldn't even express or understand what shit feeling was i having. that kind of unknown feeling really sux that badly..

all i noe is that...i noe i'm nt happy about it, but inside of me i think i'm okay about it, but why am i nt happy about it? dang! then i noe...i'ts nt bcuz of that matter, it's bcuz of other matter that made me feel upset hence, when other nt so happy stuff happened, it made me worse.

*BANG* it just hit me soo hard...i couldn't control my emotions.=(

then,

a friend came by..

talked to me about everything. helped me to analyse the probs i'm having.

picking up the lil lil stuff that was bothering me so much... putting em' in different categories..

telling me,

they're nt important for me to care so much....whY??

cuz, they don't care about it too..why do i want to put myself into such condition whr the only person that cares' only me/....

i feel absolutely stupid after hearing that=( and honestly, i wasn't happy about wat i hear...

but...

thats the truth eh..

atleast i'll try nt to care bout em'..it's nt worth my energy after all...

as for the other stuff that's reli reli reli important to meeee......

sigh...

i'll just gotta bear it till end of nxt mth. sigh...

it's nt an easy thing to do...

However, i'm glad that i have someone to help me to think...thanks alot!

on the other hand...

nov & dec's coming!!..

pleaseeeeeeeeee.............................give me one hell of a gooood year end!!!

One month will go by just really quickly..

Hoping this one month will be a smooth track...

Hoping as this one month goes,

it'll take away the tears and pain along with it....

Sometimes,

We are just too engrossed over the things that we like

that we had neglected the little things that are actually important to us;

just that we are unaware of it.

blinded by the things we enjoy doing...

without fear

without worries

However, just because of these negligence,

when clock strikes,

we realised it is too late to say ' i should have notice the consequences'

then, we'll say...

'i regret'

truth is

there are no regrets...

what's the point to say

i regret?

the time had passed...

instead,

i think

we should be happy bout what had happened

regardless it being a good thing or a bad thing

why?

it is because of what had happened,

that made us who we are today....

However,

we gotta learn from it ofcuz..

do what we like, but

make sure what u're doing right now,

u wont neglect the ppl around u..

Happy

....Glad....

give em' rainbowsss.....

Just as we thought,

we're over of some stuff...

Just as we thought,

we've recovered from the pains..

Just as we thought,

we've gone through the tears

Just as we thought...

yeah, just as we thought..

we thought..

but we did not face them as we should be doing from the start

look at us now,

we're strangers..

we're not talking...

who are we?

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

As we go through our respective lives,

flash backs come ..

reminding us of the great memories we had..

the sad memories we had..

having many things that had happened in our lives,

we are still unable to stand up..

to say " i'm really fine.."

we're still the kid 10 years back..

the kid that needs comfort...

the kid that needs someone to pull us up..

the kid that needs someone to say,

" no worries love, I'm here for you...let me help you. stop crying.."

we're afraid to be left alone...

altho we say,

we're ok to be.

one day

2 days...3 days

sure no prob..

but as the the day goes on..

we realised being alone sucks!

girls, i'm missing ya'll

Having so many things happened in our lives..

what have we learnt from em'

or just putting the same oul..attitudes we had before

ignoring the fact that,

we're wrong...

we needa change..

it's enuf of these oulfull sight..

we needa grow up..

it's hell out here.

yes indeed, lotsa things happened recently..neither one of em' are good or happy stuff...

rewind the time, or skip tis part ...it's nt smtg to be happy or proud of.

the heart thumps fast,

it couldn't stop...

cold hands and feet..

totally not a good thing to feel about...

2 minutes

what's with the 2 minutes?

well, i was taking a nap tis afternoon..was reli reli tired.

bodyaching...mind suffocating..

that kind of horrible nap=(

yea then i was awake by my phone's msg tone.replied then try to go back to sleep.

before i do that, i looked at the time.

1358

2 more mins arnd my alarm clock's gonna ring..

i asked myself...

just 2 more mins and i gotta wake up...

2 mins's such a shooortt...time to sleeep.

im sure everyone'll agree wit me on tis

it's either i sleep or get my ass up

to do smtg better than sleeping

if i choosed to wake up,

i'll be using that 2 mins to do smtg better.

saving 2mins of my time in other stuff.

rather than spending 2mins of my time...

TRYING to sleep...

which i failed to do so...

sigh...

stilll....

unfortunately.....

in the end,

i choosed to sleep

argh!

just when i was about to meet mr. sandman..

my alarm rang!

....Bring me outta here...

save the sinking heart..

and again, the feeling came back again...

no, it's not the good one, it's the awful one..

hiding behind her own shadow. fearful to step out to see what's the reality.

why?

she knows, the reality is nothing good. it'll just upset her and disappoints her, once again

however,

hiding behind doesn't seem to help.

she realised, even by hiding..

she already know how reality is like.

" I smile, but it doesn't mean i'm alryte

I laughed doesn't mean i'm happy

I said 'i'm ok', doesn't mean i really am

so why do i say things that aren't what i feel?

most people doesn't have the courage big enough to face the truth.

they choosed to hide from it.

they choosed to avoid em'

however,

no matter how long we choosed to hide from

how far we run away from..

the problem is still there..

right?

sigh....

humans...we're all reli reli dumb dumb=(

as a student, help me to run away from exam?? nah..no one can do that..=( unfortunately!haha...

quote from rach's bloggie...nice one =)

The stupid neither forgive nor forget;

the na�ve forgive and forget; t

he wise forgive but do not forget.

GOOD GRIVESSsss

A2 exam's freggin' neaar.....

are you that kind of friend, you think you are?

It's the last day of class.

everything's coming to an end.

the love life in here ends

the relationship with the lecturers are gonna end once we left

what about the relationship with friends?

will we depart on our own seperate ways and not see each other again?

will we depart on our own seperate ways and not keep in touch with each other anymore?

will we forget each other as time passed?

we are left with not much time,

how are we gonna spend this little time together,

growing our friendship stronger rather than letting it deteriorate?

what will become of our friendship in this 2 months time?

of all the fun and crazy stuff we did together,

it sinks in my memory with smileys footprints all over.

the time we laughed, we talked , we crapped...

they are of great memories to be kept.

sorry, if we let you feel left out

sorry, if we did not feel what you feel

sorry, we've not been a good friend to you

life is short, life is unfair, life is the drawing we draw..

how colourful, how pretty, how interesting, how wonderful,

how great, how cherish-able is it, it's up to us to decide...

so,

tell me

how much do you appreciate all your friendships with every friends of yours?

Are you worth to keep?

my true friend?

p/s: girlss....i miss you all laar.......

What Does It take?

Does it even worth to put it this way?

asked.

What are the risk to start your first step on earth?

or...

stay away and never have that step taken.

Does it even worth to do what you are doing now?

Will you feel great knowing whatever ending you'll get,

you know, You have put in you best.

Even if the ending will end up scars, unseen scars...

Everyone has it...

These scars never heal...

It was said,

Time heals,

Obviously, someone's bullshitting about it....

so...

Will You regret for being where you are now?

If you regret, what will you do?

NO, there are no turning backs...

there are no... 'U' turns...

there are no... If i knew this would happened, I wouldn't have taken that step.

there are no.. 'oh no! it's not the right one, I need to do something to get it right'

there are no...

there are no...

there are no......

what if this really happens,

what will you do?

you're forced to move forward...

with that scar, forever in you

No one knows about it.

You bleed alone

You cry alone

You are left alone

Is it worth it?

In the end....

Everyone's hurt.

21st September 09'

Met with the girls- sonia, beeting, amanda fam and rachel, at Friends. As always, we talked non-stop. girlss! haha.

Then, sonia wanted satay celup so so much, actually everyone wants that...except meanie rachel=( she doenst want to fetch us. In the end, we decided to drop by dp get some sushi and drinks, then to Newton Foodcourt for moreee food to sonia' crib.=)

cheuling was already thr bfore we reach . not long after that, amanda keah(ak) met us thr. due to ak's birthday falls on the 30th, some of us cant' make it on that day, so we decided to celebrate her birthday early. we surprised her!=)

she did not suspect anthing...lucky us=)

I wish.....

Thanks to sonia's mom=)

"enjoying" the movie-the messenger 2 and lotsa violent scenes from ak and cheuling, and lotsa scary chicken laughter from our dearest rachel.....

Happy Birthday, Amanda Keah=)

How is it possible that some people always avoid facing the problem? Do they know by doing so they're torturing others?
There are also some people that are stupid enough to continue their steps knowing they'll end up dead just a few steps away. What are these people thinking?
Alryte, for the first kind,
are they just being selfish? or are they being too scared to face it? They just want to continue living as it is, praying......HARD that the problem will just go away by itself. Wrong!
As for the second kind.
are they just that stupid and blind?? cant' they just tell themselves, stop stop STOP!! you're soo gonna hurt yourself if you take another step or two.

+ + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + +

I Got to....

?What to do?

reaching out to the end

it's mock exam week yet i'm nt even prepared for any subject. not just me, but my frens too? heh.just to make myself feel better for not studying, which doesn't help much. if i don't start now, as in NOW i'm really really gonna be sooo dead! *kill me*

for the past 3weeks being away from home; staying here-Nilai, was trully something something what college students do? haha. alryte...not just these 3 weeks but for the past feeeww....weeks even bfore sem break. parents will be furious about what we do- spending much much of their money * sorry dad+mom*, despite the spending part, we had hell lotsa fun, didnt we?

A2's in a month plus away, A-level ends there. everyone will be going on their own life, seperately. some might be meeting in the same uni but some will be away; soon... we'll lost contact. The End.

people come and go of our life, leaving footprints; as they move on, we're left with just memories. we might not be seeing each other, all we see are just old pictures of us, old memories. who knows, as time passed we might even forget each other. one day, we might meet up. recalling the great memories we had together, laughing much about it. just as sonia and i talked bout it few weeks ago. hee

oooo..raya's coming, i'm going back homeee...BEETING i MISS YOU! * sonia, rach and karen, i miss bting more...hehheee..*

hello there earth-things. This site have been left alone for some time, it came to me saying ' oh owner vivian toh, im shooo lonely here, update me with something interesting puhleaseeee..., i'll DIEeeeee.....!' sadly to say, nothing interesting happen for the last few weeks. had been oh so dull. Forgive me bloggie.
well! in fact, there's really sometg to talk about. guess what? aha! boring oh studies- A2-level!
aiks! we're left with only a mth plus to go, and err.....how much preparation have i done? damn.....

forget out exam aite. it gives me butterfly tummy=(
aha! rachel miss usss....yes dear, we're missing u too! just that we're all so busy with our studies. hang on thr aite, i'll be teman-ing u 24/7 nxt year. u'll be soooo sick of me! eeeek!

haaar....save me people!!! how the hell am i supposed to go thru ths?? what are they? everything! i feel so tight-up by everything that happens around me. the people the things....urgh~ everything!
even even even..sometimes, the things u think it's over does come back to u. sometimes, things are so f-ed up u tend to ignore it, but the actual fact is, it's a big thing to think about. then, when u start to think about it, u'll get so...soo....wats the word to usee......soo....ish! u get wat i mean ryte? ha..yea..life is never a bed of roses.
we people tends to take things for granted=( the nature of human. eek! imma human toooo.....

THE BE CONTINUE.....

p/s: im just too bored thats why i write tis, im just too lazy to continue this. wheeeeeee~=(

awesome post from Rachel
read it=) it might help us in life....
it makes so much sense, but i haf to admit that im awfully stubborn to follow=(
well, we..okok. i..i noe i should be doing this and that and not this and that..but im nt doin the i-shud-be-doing stuff, instead i go for i-shud-not. eg: IM SUPPOSED TO BE STUDING NOW!!! *GREAT!*

well, just read it aite=) it's good..

dang! 2 weeks had passed.... That means, we are left with one week of holiday which means exam's drawing nearer to us. okay, that sux!
I've been wasting hell lots of my time during this holiday. Dad's non-stop naggin bout me needing to start studying/revising my work has been going on and on for this 3 weeks=( . I know! He's doing this for my own good, but why can't I get myself awake to see the mess I've gotten myself into, after that horrible horrible AS.
Teevo had alwayssss been there for me for these 2 weeks, hehe. He had..hmm mayb is a she..anyways, i prefer it to be a he, yea so he sticked to me, or shall i rephrase it, I stick to him almost the entire day! However, damn Astro doesn't like to give out goood movies for me=( , still...whether there are good or bad or boring or stupid shows going on, i'll still stick to him. i've turned to be a couch potato=( I dun want to~ seriously, i dun like to be tat laaar...hehe. forceed to neee....*innocent*

something cool i did was..ehem! bake cupcakes!!! woohooo~ they taste great!=D am shoooo proud of myself!!!
sorry, no pics was taken=( but trust me, they do..................DO taste gooood!
hahaaaa

alryte, alryte!!! i gotta get back to my books!
ciaoz

viv

Yesterday,

22nd Aug 09' , my aunt called us( me mom n dad) to go for a dinner at Pay Fong High School for a dinner- Melodian's Charity Outreach. This dinner was organized by the peranakans of Singapore and Malaysia.To be honest, the dinner was kinda...boring, but the cool thing about it is tat they have dances not performance kind of dances, but they have a dance floor=)/ BUT.....the ppl that dance are..haha..old ppl heh. man n woman. ooh! i tell u....dun look down on them haar.. they CAN really dance. and not jz line dance, they can even dance those hot hot dance. and and and...they can reli shake their bodaaaysss..

line dance.love it! =)t

the slow dance. aww...those old couples are shoooo cute~ hahaa..

oh~ there's this stage performance by a group of dancers called The GP Dancers. haha. u noe wat's so special about them? heh...they're ehem! ah guass..

i tell ya...gals will dieee....to haf their bodies.=( sorry, no pics were taken .

well, overall, everything was alryte... food wasnt tat nice.watching those old uncles and aunties are pretty entertaining. ooooooooooooooh!!!! i forgotten smtg! i saw my ex-principal thr, dancing=) ooh! she can really shake haha~

tats all for tis tym.. til the nxt post..ciaoz

\viv\

HAPPY!! for now, that i'm home. YESsssssss~ finally i'm back. need to get my head straight for these coming few weeks



the haze is bad!! really really really bad.............my shirt smells each time i step out.=( tats how bad the haze is now...take care ppl...~
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cy popped a question to me. surprised, tat i never had thought of it bfore.
it's not that i do not want to tell out wat i think, it's that i find it rather difficult for me to put them in words and sometimes, i find it better off without telling out. better for you and me. mutual benefits, u noe..
yes, thr are times i regret for not telling. tis contradicts man....
how nice wud it be if i can spill evrything i want ppl to noe...how nice wud it be if ppl knows how i feel and wat am i thinking. sonia, will tat be?

7 weeks had passed! and u noe wat...that had been the most happening 7 weeks of my time in INTI. how long haf i been thr? 1 year and out of that 1 yr, i had had the most eventful 7 weeks thr. thanks to em'=)many things had happened for that passed 7 weeks. good and bad...u name it. but i think most of them are pretty much of the good side haha. parents might kill us for all of the good things we did, but hey...tats wat we do in college ryte? heh. my sis gonna kill me instead=(
anyways... im glad tat i know these ppl, tho we met kinda late, we're kinda slow in making frens huh. still..it is indeed better than never ryte.=), nuff said.


there're things in life that we gotta do for the best of everyone. whichever decisions we make, might end up hurting someone, that someone might be yourself or someone else. whoever it is, once made, we gotta make sure we wont regret for wat was made.
choices...that's wat all of us have to do. good or bad? right or wrong..? i don't know. rationally...yea,we haf to....
think rationally huh. arhh...i'm wrong i'm wrong i always have been!!

Puny here's sad. I have no idea what's going on with myself. I feel oh-so-paranoid about everything=( it sarks! I just want to go home. Really in need of you girls with me now.. and home! i need my mom, i need my dad and i need my sis!!! *sigh*

For every good things, there'll definitely be something bad behind. For every bad things, there'll definitely be something good behind. yea yea..i KNOW! but what i'm having now is simply HORRIBLE! =( i neeeed help here , girlsss...i just want to hang out wit y'll!

YES, i had fun here...the friends here are great...but i missed y'll. i NEED TO TALK!!!

oh oh..im going back malacca tmr!!!!

viv

the world is in sucha mess. abused. bombs. rapes. robberies. terroism. any kind, u name it. wonder where on earth does the word 'peace' ever come from, to exists in this world. it just came to my mind about how horribly this can be. how humans had turned into. said,' we're here for your benefits' ahh..bullshit! truth is, thy're just doing those 'good' things fer yourselves.
mind me, i'm just spitting out wat i think, suddenly..=(
what are we doing to ourselves? our lifee....? living for your own, or....for othersss??


what made you laugh today? who made you laugh today? who made you pissed? who made you cry? who made you moody? who made you see things clearer today? are you a better person today than yesterday? or are you worser than yesterday? are you a lil more matured today than yesterdaY? what good haf you done today? .......... =(

people i care...good night!

signing off....

viv

Ramdom

i'm gettin' lazier by day. spent whole day in my room today. what haf i been doing? aha, u'd be surprised! i cleaned my fan! ah.. my room's windy now. with such horrible weather i really need this clean fan. feeling oh-so satisfied that my room is finally clean! not that it wasn't before, atleast it is cleanER now. yea notice the -er ?

AS results' coming out pretty soon. i'm sooo anxious about it.

sigh~ daddy probably gonna be disappointed again. holidays are coming too. which means, this sem gonna end soooon. WHICH means....a-level's gonna finish.WHICH means...i'm leaving INTI soon. beat that! seems like i just enrolled ystd. haha. blardy fast huh.

the weird part is that, we, friends are this close only after 1 year of knowing each other.that's right! after on ONE year of studying in the same classs. still no matter how long we noe each other, these ppl are hillariously fun to hang out with. =D tats the good side, as for the bad side.. hehe... i'll keep tat to myself then;)

*cough* yeap am still coughing....ouh~

I wanna go back home! i miss my mama...=(

Have been coughing terribly.it feels horrible, the itchiness of me throat and the muscle aching of me tummy=(. and and... i gotta take about 30 mins to get myself stop coughing and sleep. urgh!

oh and and..the ugliness of eating medicine! it taste baaaddd.............

horrible i tell ya..

Do you know what's worth fighting for?

When it's not worth dying for?

Does it take your breath away?

And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?

And you look for a place to hide?

Did someone break your heart inside?

You're in ruins

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms, give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms to the sky, you and i

Did you try to live your own

When you burnt down the house and home?

Did you stand too close to the fire

Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's to to live and let die

And you can't get another try

Something inside this heart has died

you're in ruins

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms, give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms to the sky

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms, give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms to the sky, you and i

i heart Green day

Simplicity. How much does it affect your life? Complications? trully life is kinda eff-ed up now. why? i missed the old times. the times where we need not to think of soo many things, everything was kept simple. and and..you know wat? everyone was happy! now, we gotta think of this and that, this and that. urgh. it's just so not right! had had enough of all these dramas in life. we're complaining here, yet we have no idea how fortunate we are right now. Humans are never never never satisfied with what they possessed. we have this, we want that. we tend to compare with others, what's worse is that we compare with those which are better than us. hmm, why can't we ever thought of those tat are worse than us? mayb, by doing tat we will feel alot better, er not alot better or even mayb, but definitely feel blessed with everything we have now. rather than putting our puny minds on things that make us looking ugly in any way. yes, by comparing with the better ones does make us want to improve on ourselves, but i dun see any good if we were to compare so much with others. why can't we just live for ourselves and not others? we are just never satisfied with what we have. that's freaking saddening for all humankind. ouh~
we're what? just 19 yrs old? we have soo many many more years ahead of us. why aren't we learning from what we have now? why do we tend to make everything seem so complicated and end-of-the-world kind? why do some of us thinks things as thought it doesnt matter at all? why do some of us thinks smtg is impossible to reach but the fact is it is? why do we want to act we're like grown ups but the actual fact is we're far far far away from it? why do we want to act child-like when we want others to think we're matured enuf? why are we not appreciating what we have now? why are we not appreciating the friendship we have now? why can't we ever ever learnt from our mistakes? why do we keep on repeating the same mistake over and over and over again? why do we think things soo simple yet we thought we think it complicated? why can't we stop bitching bout others and for the first time think of wat others think? why can't we be mature enough to understand the world around us? what are we going to do with our life? what is the purpose of us being here? what kind of future do you want? what are we supposed to do with ourselves if we screw our life now? why are we disappointing our parents over and over again? why can't we think of how our parents feel each time we're about to disappoint them? why are we so hard-headed? why do friends bitch about friends? why do we want to make each other upset when we hate ppl doing that to ourselves? why are doing things to others that we nvr want others to do the same to us? why some friendship are not the same as some other friendship? why can't we treat some ppl the same way we treat some ppl?
how much does it worth of ur frienship to your friend? does he/she thinks the same way as wat you think of the friendship you all behold? and the list goes on and on....................

by all these questions, it is obvious that i can't live the life of simplicity. haa! don't tell me neither one of u thought of all these bfore.
we're not living by ourselves, we're living among ppl, ppl of the same kind. never ever let something spoils a relationship, any kind-friendship, family, romance...any kind. =)
yes, we'll get pissed off at ppl at times, but why do we want to keep that anger in us? it doesnt feel good at all. we talked about how much we appreciate on this and that, hw much we appreciate something, but the truth is, how many ppl actually meant what they say? what is the probability of you being near to what you said?
truth is, we're all afraid of facing the truth, facing what we are about to step on. we're just afraid to tell the phobia we have. the pride in all of us. if only, we can be brave enough. we are tormenting our own souls. we are given chances,what we are now depends on how we use those chance. choices are given too, so make wise choices and nver regret on it even if it turned out bad.who knws, in 10 yrs time, u turned out to be a billionaire all thanks to tat bad choice u made? haha!! who knows who knws.....

19th July 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN!!

finally, another one turned 19=)

hope we surprised u by turning up in ur house, dear. haha.

SURPRISE SURPRISE

.anger.horrified.shocked.disappointment.

die u, emotions.
die u, concentrations.
die u, problems.
die u, die u, die u...

pride concurs most part. lost it, kills it.

Tuesday

30th June 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

~SHEUE LI~

Sweet and loving dear sheue li. she has the most undying personality tat make us love her! teary teary gal.. she cries kinda easily=( haha.. ouh! i reli hope what we did, DID surprise you. haha. well, i've said wat i want to say to u d aite. so...

we just hope you had a great one this year!! *hugs n kisses*

WE LOVE YOU too!

p/s: do rmb the kiss i asked for haha

.love.

Viv

From left(top): yi ching, eddy, jackson aka big bro, and sorry i forgotten ur name=(

(bottom): cha yee, peijie, vivian, jiaqi

Saturday, 27th June 2009

simply a wonderful night out!

eddy picked us up at bout 10 plus, left inti at around 10 plus near 11. hmm..okok. guess it was exactly after 11. Malaysians we are=( mayb not me haha. yeah..off we went to Times Square. ooh! whn was the last time i went thr?
had a blastful shopping day hehe. tho ntg much were bought, but the awesomeness of having friends together hunting for dreesss, trying out dozens of dresses. fitting in and out of them is sooo cool! haha..loved it!

helped out qiqi to hunt for her dress, n cha and myself for heels hehe. it was extremely tiring to try out oh so many pairs of heels. size 4 size..size7 size8 size size size.... i pity the salesboy. bet he find us extremely ma fan. helping us out with shoes..getting the sizes. and he even gave us his opinion of the heels aww hw nice of him=)

and and and...jackson brought us to this wonderful beautiful oh so gorgeous place-lookout point. hmm..i think tat place is called tat. neways..tat place is jz simply beautifuL! having out dinner looking out at the night view of the whole kl. imagine that!

had our dinner thr, yes it was expensive. well, we paid for the view =) shud be alryte..
went up to this pondok,quite a high one, to see the view...and smtg tragic happened- peijie's handphone.

im sure u noe what happened


after that, off we went to putrajaya for the night view. oh me goodiness....the bridges were oh so pweety... putrajaya is way...different from wat we see in malaysia haha. even the lamp pole nicer

jokes, laughters were everywhere during the whole day. so yea... great day!=)

however, the day didnt end well, for me. still, thanks for the day=)

signing off

vivian

viv

wake up!

.....please...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MARIA=D

aka, Rachel Ong!

buddies since form1. She's amazingly..blur. and also famous for her non stop laughter haaha

bet ya, this is the one birthday you'll never never forget, and if u do, well...beware! haha..

ouh~ someone gt prank by Fly.fm ryte. haha..seee...no one forgets ur bday kay. WE LOVE YOU!

dun u ever think we'll neglect u aite...

as i told u bfore,

let's make this vry day the new chapter aite. no sad sad d ah..haha. u sad one time we smack u one time ! haha.

We love u loads!

HAPPY 5th BIRTHDAY!! hehe

Friday 19th June 2009

I DROVE! hehe.. yeah, i know it might not be a big thing for anyone of u out thr, but hey! it was for me kay. it was fun actually haha. without mummy thr frightening me each time=)

ahh yes! Sonia came to my hse at about 1059( according to her ) but i think she was late haha. neways..we reached dp at 11 plus walked around dp n mp few times, talking laughing..haha.

soon at about 12, met up with rach and off we go to sibaraku. yes japanese food! aha u guessed it, we talked! we laughed we gossip? oh er..exchange opinions! haha..we were so bloated after the meal. and thanks to rachel! she made us laughed and laughed and laughed soooo much til our stomach and chest hurts=(

rachel aka maria, our maid=), holding the coke for me to drink.

oh! and she screamed!!! in the mall..ahah..thanks to mr moth=( so paiseh noe.hehe. oh and she frightened an elderly couple too.kesian them. non stopped laughter continues til in the cinema. shyt wei...everyone in the cinema was looking at us crazy girls..laughing for duno wat reason. haha. rachel was toooo afraid to sit at the side. she wouldnt want to exchange seats wit me or sonia=( haha..

cuz of that! we couldnt resist to kacau her bout the old lady in the movie oh yar..btw, we watched drag me to hell. it wasnt scary, but shocking.

i noe...it's so evil of me n sonia to tease rachel so much bout that old lady. hehe but it was sooo fun! we had hella fun ! rachel was so scared that she tricked us to teman her back to her car hehee..

hey rachel! remember remember to tell that old lady we say hi each time u see her k=P

hehe. she might hate us for that! =(

they made my day=) it had been a long long time since i had such laughter=) they're just amazing people to be around with! love u girls! =D

read sonia's blog on this=) im sure it's much nicer than mine =) http://boredomstriked.blogspot.com