Tuesday, May 26, 2009

are you ready kids? aye aye captain!
Fighting crime trying to save the world.
Chemical X! =P





hello kids! it's Barney~


the purple dinasour





haha..it's reli funny looking back at al the i-used-watch cartoons. well, i can't reli remember all of them.Spongebob is still the i-am-still watching cartoon haha. as for barney? no waY! hahaha...
what other cartoons do you watch? it feels reli reli great to be a kid.living without worries. however, kids nowadays are trying to dress up/ act like adults. haih~
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oh btw! i saw something disgusting again! first apple..
now.!
yogurt! eewwww....

Monday, May 25, 2009

WATCH THIS! if it doesn't change your way of thinkin...SCREW you!



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H8ZuKF3dxCY&feature=player_embedded

Sunday, May 24, 2009

random meaningless post=( im jst boree=(

okAY! time to really really rest!
my body can't take it anymore...im EXHAUSTED!! =(
sleepy time! hahhaa
Affair has been going on in most married couples as either one of them, the wife or the husband's needs were not satisfied. Hence, as things continue to worsen, he/she tends to have an affair with someone else that is able to fulfill their needs. If this affair continues for long, love grows. In the end, it will definitely be awfully difficult to break that relationship. Well, I'm sure u'll noe what will happene to the marriage -divorce~=(


5 needs of a woman:
# 1 Affection
symbolises :-security
-protection
-comfort
-approval
# 2 Conversation
no good communication, no relationship
# 3 Honesty and openness
- honestly is the best insurance of marriage
truth hurts, but lies are worse
# 4 Financial Support=)
- Financial security one of the deep security for wives.
# 5 Family Commitment from man
does he spend enough time with the family?
does he commit himself to the family?
how does he handle the kids/family?
5 needs of man
#1 Sexual fulfilment
hmmm...
#2 Recreational Companionship
Spending quality times with each other than to spend it with someone else. Shares the most enjoyable time of your life with your spouse.
# 3 Attractive spouse
Attractive is what you do with what you have. Ladies, do not make yourself looking haggard in front of you hubby. Yes, you want him to love you for who you are, but physically, you too gotta take care. Increase your self-esteem!
" My self-esteem is the foundation of my life"
# 4 Domestic support
Needs peace and quiet at home. A noisy, unpeaceful home drives the man away thus, he'll seek a quiet place away from home=(
# 5 Admiration
He needs her to be proud of him than to look down on him. Admiration motivates their self-esteem. =)
Understand your spouse/ the other half, gives honour and love em' =)
and
RESPECT
by: Rev. Dr. Kong Hee

it saddens me to think that all of my darlings are gonna finish their exam and im not=( good for them, bad for me. they'll be able to run free happily, and me? covering myself with tonnes of chemistry....physicss......mathsss....sigh~ the thought of it even scare the shit outta me. what suckish the most is, by looking at them enjoying their holiday makes me feel like i am too, when i am not supposed to.wth.
i am pretty sure that all of my friends here are facing the same problem as me. ouh~ =(

Friday, May 22, 2009



It was never easy, it is never easy. It doesn't take up a day to recover weeks to recover. The neverending roud to the exit is definitely exhausting, no one said it will be easy. No one person that walked out throught that exit saying it is easy. How many more steps to my exit? I don't know. But i'm praying hard that I am just a few steps away from it. Throughout these path, i've seen things that i want, but had hidden myself from the truth. same time, i'd also seen things that are beyong my expectations, which eventually caused more bumps. However, I do belief things will turned out to be alryte after that exit. soon...soon....i'll reach!


Thursday, May 21, 2009


it's 448am! IM HUNGRY!!!! dinner cosists of....
*drums roll*
M&M's=D biscuits and water=(
HapPY POST!

I wonder how disgusting people can get, why wud i say that? ha! if my sis were to read tis post she'll be thinking .....* weeellll...i'll keep tat between me n my sis=P* neways....yea how disgusting ppl cn get? example! there's tis rotten EATEN apple in one of the shower compartment! eew! whoever that person is..she's bathing while eating her apple? how? okay..i don't mind eating in the washroom, but! eating while showering?? haha..go figure~

Friday, May 15, 2009


Yesterday was a..spontaneous journey hehe. as, i jumped into the Airport liner wit Cha and off we go to Seremban! taddaaa! im back home! which, i am NOT supposed to be now=( HOME!

well...i got homesick and got reli reli reli bored staying in my hostel. fWhy?? well! smart ass me, decided not to take my laptop up, all i faced was just my BOOKS!!! fer more than a weeek...mayb more than that. that makes me look super smart, but hell no! i am not! i was rotting in my room!! seriously, who'll survive in such condition?? bOOKS and OONLY BOOKSS! only electronics in my room, which are my source of entertainment are my phone and mp3. what else? hmmm..oh yea story BOOK and my magazine. thats all. there were days i don't come out from my room AT ALL for the WHOLE day..sigh.

D.E.P.P.R.E.S.S.I.G!


those days are over i tell ya! haha.still...i'm not supposed..umm..no! i CAN'T slash MUST NOT slash FORBIDDEN haha..to spend so much of my time on9, checking on mails....chats..and most importantly..muveessssss...and can't on me laptop that often.sigh..UNTIL i finish my AS which is...urgh..JUNE! HAIH~~~~~~~~~~

kays then...times up! gotta get back to me books.BOOKS again!

p/s: ppl...kawan kawan sekalian(you know hu u ppl are=P ) we need to hang out after our exams aite!!! we memborontak exams! hehe...miss y'all!

take care

luv
vivian







Saturday, May 9, 2009

I have enough of cuts
wounds that are not healed yet cut again
giving out a loud scream for help
everyone hears but
you.
Have you forgotten?
No
I can bear no longer
so I decided to run away
Goodbye
I will not ask for more from you
as
I had enought of wounds
I look Ugly!
SUPER
I want back my life
my life which I never have to cry
and plead for help from others
My life
which I smile everyday with no worries
from day to night
but not,
with a tears i couldn't bear
God
please help me in this.
I'd decided to step out
and
Forgive
take away my all of this, please.
Tomorrow!
A new day
be
THE ONE
I've always prayed for, please.
Amazingly BORED. yea, u heard me, BORED. Haf been studying fer weeks.. and my exam haf not even start.ntg much happened for the past few weeks, dull and boring, which means books is all i haf now.

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Things can't be the same now/things aren't the same now, i can't continue to be wondering around me past hoping to bring it to the future. We can't bring the past to the future!
mmhmm.... tats it then.
Wendy asked me, do i know the meaning of " love and lust" i was like...huh?!
lust is not in the sense of sexually duh~ neways.. she said, if u love someone u wouldn't go stalking someone or keep wanting that person back( if tat person doesn't u noe, haf feelings fer u nymore) so... lust is like, u must own that person," ooh! i must haf u i must haf u...!"
soo...yea, if u love u'd love that person to be happy and yea, forgive fer wtv tat had happened.
I respect the decisions made, i wud love the haf back the love, but then, i won't want someone tat doesnt love me anymore, it will only bring pain.
Forgive,i shall. and nvr gonna bring up any of me sad stuff again

u wouldn't understand, but it is not important. all i need now is u, to be happy and tat is the important one now, and not to let yerself get hurt. memories are kept in me heart whr i'll cherish it, no matter good or bad. it is impossible fer me to forget, but i forgive as i'll go on my own road and not turn back, as u had already did. i cherish every bit of the memories we had, and i thank God that he'd given me the chance to keep them and haf them. it is not my liking to turn out tis way, somehow it did, i bow down to fate and fate shall bring me to whr i shud be. Fate had brought u away from me, and had brought u to another, and God shall bless y'all, as He did fer us. i'm sorry, i said words that harsh u lose ur respect, im sorry. i pray tat one day, we can atleast say 'hi' to each other.

I'm HUNGRY hahaa.. random i noe. i am reli hungry now=(

Friday, May 1, 2009

Do You Belief In Miracles?

Do you?Haf u ever experience a miracle in ur life? I do blif in it, just that i've yet to experience it, sad huh?

I'm tired of everything that had happened.
It is so unfair that things happened without your liking, and go to the way what others want it to be. yea, some say, you're meant to hav much better than what you wnt, oh just forget bout it. If this happens to u, can u ? can you JUST let go? no, i'm not blaming anyone for the wonderful advices, i'm just tired of the hell i'm going tru here, the confusion, the questions that will nvr be answered. hey! i'm dealing with it alryte... i'm human. im doing pretty good d kay. i get frustrated easily, i lost my mood easily. wth. can't life be the way it used to be, when we were kids? living without much worries...oh that sensation~
I won't be crying over some people,
I won't be thinking so much over some people,
I won't be worrying what will happen in my future,
I need not to think bout what will my future be like
I won't be here crapping all these stuff....complaining...which made everyone feel annoyed, including me..=(
boo you!


how nice huh? to be a lil gal again.=)