What Does It take?

Does it even worth to put it this way?

asked.

What are the risk to start your first step on earth?

or...

stay away and never have that step taken.

Does it even worth to do what you are doing now?

Will you feel great knowing whatever ending you'll get,

you know, You have put in you best.

Even if the ending will end up scars, unseen scars...

Everyone has it...

These scars never heal...

It was said,

Time heals,

Obviously, someone's bullshitting about it....

so...

Will You regret for being where you are now?

If you regret, what will you do?

NO, there are no turning backs...

there are no... 'U' turns...

there are no... If i knew this would happened, I wouldn't have taken that step.

there are no.. 'oh no! it's not the right one, I need to do something to get it right'

there are no...

there are no...

there are no......

what if this really happens,

what will you do?

you're forced to move forward...

with that scar, forever in you

No one knows about it.

You bleed alone

You cry alone

You are left alone

Is it worth it?

In the end....

Everyone's hurt.

21st September 09'

Met with the girls- sonia, beeting, amanda fam and rachel, at Friends. As always, we talked non-stop. girlss! haha.

Then, sonia wanted satay celup so so much, actually everyone wants that...except meanie rachel=( she doenst want to fetch us. In the end, we decided to drop by dp get some sushi and drinks, then to Newton Foodcourt for moreee food to sonia' crib.=)

cheuling was already thr bfore we reach . not long after that, amanda keah(ak) met us thr. due to ak's birthday falls on the 30th, some of us cant' make it on that day, so we decided to celebrate her birthday early. we surprised her!=)

she did not suspect anthing...lucky us=)

I wish.....

Thanks to sonia's mom=)

"enjoying" the movie-the messenger 2 and lotsa violent scenes from ak and cheuling, and lotsa scary chicken laughter from our dearest rachel.....

Happy Birthday, Amanda Keah=)

How is it possible that some people always avoid facing the problem? Do they know by doing so they're torturing others?
There are also some people that are stupid enough to continue their steps knowing they'll end up dead just a few steps away. What are these people thinking?
Alryte, for the first kind,
are they just being selfish? or are they being too scared to face it? They just want to continue living as it is, praying......HARD that the problem will just go away by itself. Wrong!
As for the second kind.
are they just that stupid and blind?? cant' they just tell themselves, stop stop STOP!! you're soo gonna hurt yourself if you take another step or two.

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I Got to....

?What to do?

reaching out to the end

it's mock exam week yet i'm nt even prepared for any subject. not just me, but my frens too? heh.just to make myself feel better for not studying, which doesn't help much. if i don't start now, as in NOW i'm really really gonna be sooo dead! *kill me*

for the past 3weeks being away from home; staying here-Nilai, was trully something something what college students do? haha. alryte...not just these 3 weeks but for the past feeeww....weeks even bfore sem break. parents will be furious about what we do- spending much much of their money * sorry dad+mom*, despite the spending part, we had hell lotsa fun, didnt we?

A2's in a month plus away, A-level ends there. everyone will be going on their own life, seperately. some might be meeting in the same uni but some will be away; soon... we'll lost contact. The End.

people come and go of our life, leaving footprints; as they move on, we're left with just memories. we might not be seeing each other, all we see are just old pictures of us, old memories. who knows, as time passed we might even forget each other. one day, we might meet up. recalling the great memories we had together, laughing much about it. just as sonia and i talked bout it few weeks ago. hee

oooo..raya's coming, i'm going back homeee...BEETING i MISS YOU! * sonia, rach and karen, i miss bting more...hehheee..*

hello there earth-things. This site have been left alone for some time, it came to me saying ' oh owner vivian toh, im shooo lonely here, update me with something interesting puhleaseeee..., i'll DIEeeeee.....!' sadly to say, nothing interesting happen for the last few weeks. had been oh so dull. Forgive me bloggie.
well! in fact, there's really sometg to talk about. guess what? aha! boring oh studies- A2-level!
aiks! we're left with only a mth plus to go, and err.....how much preparation have i done? damn.....

forget out exam aite. it gives me butterfly tummy=(
aha! rachel miss usss....yes dear, we're missing u too! just that we're all so busy with our studies. hang on thr aite, i'll be teman-ing u 24/7 nxt year. u'll be soooo sick of me! eeeek!

haaar....save me people!!! how the hell am i supposed to go thru ths?? what are they? everything! i feel so tight-up by everything that happens around me. the people the things....urgh~ everything!
even even even..sometimes, the things u think it's over does come back to u. sometimes, things are so f-ed up u tend to ignore it, but the actual fact is, it's a big thing to think about. then, when u start to think about it, u'll get so...soo....wats the word to usee......soo....ish! u get wat i mean ryte? ha..yea..life is never a bed of roses.
we people tends to take things for granted=( the nature of human. eek! imma human toooo.....

THE BE CONTINUE.....

p/s: im just too bored thats why i write tis, im just too lazy to continue this. wheeeeeee~=(