Forgive and will not Forget

Things haf been really messy, gone haywire. sad huh.. having ur life all messed up cause of someone, and the worst part of this is that that person doesn't give a damn to what happens to u. oh no..thats not the worst part, the Worst part is you being oh-so-stubborn to be siding that person when the entire world is telling you to forget...telling you that that person is not worth for you to think of...etc. etc. etc...oh please! i am no robot..i can't forget it's not tat easy. hit the "delete' button and shooo to everything? i wished i cud do that, but sadly..no.
I'm giving my best to let go.what sux the most is when you recall on everything. urgh..everything starts tumbling down on u..and that'll reli haunt u for days,yea.. i tell ya...days!!!
sigh.....
so what if i feel this way..? so what? the only thing that will happen is me making my friends and family worried and myself sad. uh....what for ryte?

i was told that the one thing that human can't lost is relationships regardless of what kind of relationship- family, friends, gf/bf..any kind of relationship. Once broken, it feels like hell, everything seems so dark... don't you think so? it is true noe... you can lost you car, ur keys, ur, ur shoes,anything you owned.....but....
hey u can still get them back ryte? but not for relationships... let's say..ur relationship wit ur family breaks off..how do you feel about that?umm... what about friends?don't tell me you'll not feel anything when u had an awful arguement wit ur bestie? how do u feel?? and gosh...what about gf/bf? don't lemme start off with that..
so yea, relationship is like the worse thing to lose. it'll take u FOREVER to mend that bond..it 'll take u FOREVER to heal the pain..sigh..
why do we want to make ourselves miserable for destroying things that meant something to us?

yes, no one is perfect! duh~ and yea, we do make mistakes. stupid stupid mistakes..and some of them are mistakes that u can't turn back. what i wanna say is we just gotta take these mistakes, these bad experience as a medicine for us to grow. umm...i don't noe whether 'medicine' is a rite word to use..err.....u get wat i wana say ryte? hope so!

mmhmm...it is through these bumps, these pains, these horrible needles that helped us to grow up, OPEN our eyes!
I'm dare say im one of them that reli need to grow out from this pain tho it is not easy and it is killing me but i just haf to!hmm...i wonder how some ppl can do that so easily..

the best part of this is that, along ur healing process, u'll realised the beauty ppl around you that cared so much for u.=) they're always thr..i love them!
they're like my guardian angels hahaa...look! i don't need an orange guardian angel..
pain..tears...sadnesss...they're just negative effects yea.
you know what, i don't wana care nor think so much of that pain...i want you to be happy, sounds pathetic, but this is all that i can asked for from u.

i Dare to say i'm WILLING to forgive u..but it'll take forever to forget. but i will try ok.

hahaha! no worrieesss....im not gonna kill meself..i haf much better things to do ryte? =)
alrytte then, til the next post, bye ~

love
viv