Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

i have a journal that states down evry sadness/happiness i have.
i have a journal that reads everything i write.
i have a journal that knows everything i know.


Finals just finished, and i am...
yes, i am excited to be back home...i am back, btw
however, what so ever excitement i have can never be 24/7
why?
journal, you know why.

dragging on things that supposed to be over....
what do you think about that? waste of time?

i never thought things would end up to be feeling that awful, welll, mayb only me feeling that way...sometimes, i feel extremely dumbass to be feeling that sad , awful...etc....
but then, to think of the happy side, the bright side of things that might happen,
they NEVER happen...

seriously, i have no idea why....why do evrytime....when i actually think of the good side, happy side...the optimistic way...things jz don't turn out the way i hope....why?? anyone can answer me?


for all of it that happened, or do not happen....

the only result is....

me feeling useless...
owh...i'm not lonely!!! i have my family and friends!!

why would i feel that way??

thanks to YOU!!!



i appreciate a welcome...




oh...thanks ppl, for reading my crap~