Ramdom

i'm gettin' lazier by day. spent whole day in my room today. what haf i been doing? aha, u'd be surprised! i cleaned my fan! ah.. my room's windy now. with such horrible weather i really need this clean fan. feeling oh-so satisfied that my room is finally clean! not that it wasn't before, atleast it is cleanER now. yea notice the -er ?

AS results' coming out pretty soon. i'm sooo anxious about it.

sigh~ daddy probably gonna be disappointed again. holidays are coming too. which means, this sem gonna end soooon. WHICH means....a-level's gonna finish.WHICH means...i'm leaving INTI soon. beat that! seems like i just enrolled ystd. haha. blardy fast huh.

the weird part is that, we, friends are this close only after 1 year of knowing each other.that's right! after on ONE year of studying in the same classs. still no matter how long we noe each other, these ppl are hillariously fun to hang out with. =D tats the good side, as for the bad side.. hehe... i'll keep tat to myself then;)

*cough* yeap am still coughing....ouh~

I wanna go back home! i miss my mama...=(

Have been coughing terribly.it feels horrible, the itchiness of me throat and the muscle aching of me tummy=(. and and... i gotta take about 30 mins to get myself stop coughing and sleep. urgh!

oh and and..the ugliness of eating medicine! it taste baaaddd.............

horrible i tell ya..

Do you know what's worth fighting for?

When it's not worth dying for?

Does it take your breath away?

And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?

And you look for a place to hide?

Did someone break your heart inside?

You're in ruins

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms, give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms to the sky, you and i

Did you try to live your own

When you burnt down the house and home?

Did you stand too close to the fire

Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's to to live and let die

And you can't get another try

Something inside this heart has died

you're in ruins

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms, give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms to the sky

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms, give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms to the sky, you and i

i heart Green day

Simplicity. How much does it affect your life? Complications? trully life is kinda eff-ed up now. why? i missed the old times. the times where we need not to think of soo many things, everything was kept simple. and and..you know wat? everyone was happy! now, we gotta think of this and that, this and that. urgh. it's just so not right! had had enough of all these dramas in life. we're complaining here, yet we have no idea how fortunate we are right now. Humans are never never never satisfied with what they possessed. we have this, we want that. we tend to compare with others, what's worse is that we compare with those which are better than us. hmm, why can't we ever thought of those tat are worse than us? mayb, by doing tat we will feel alot better, er not alot better or even mayb, but definitely feel blessed with everything we have now. rather than putting our puny minds on things that make us looking ugly in any way. yes, by comparing with the better ones does make us want to improve on ourselves, but i dun see any good if we were to compare so much with others. why can't we just live for ourselves and not others? we are just never satisfied with what we have. that's freaking saddening for all humankind. ouh~
we're what? just 19 yrs old? we have soo many many more years ahead of us. why aren't we learning from what we have now? why do we tend to make everything seem so complicated and end-of-the-world kind? why do some of us thinks things as thought it doesnt matter at all? why do some of us thinks smtg is impossible to reach but the fact is it is? why do we want to act we're like grown ups but the actual fact is we're far far far away from it? why do we want to act child-like when we want others to think we're matured enuf? why are we not appreciating what we have now? why are we not appreciating the friendship we have now? why can't we ever ever learnt from our mistakes? why do we keep on repeating the same mistake over and over and over again? why do we think things soo simple yet we thought we think it complicated? why can't we stop bitching bout others and for the first time think of wat others think? why can't we be mature enough to understand the world around us? what are we going to do with our life? what is the purpose of us being here? what kind of future do you want? what are we supposed to do with ourselves if we screw our life now? why are we disappointing our parents over and over again? why can't we think of how our parents feel each time we're about to disappoint them? why are we so hard-headed? why do friends bitch about friends? why do we want to make each other upset when we hate ppl doing that to ourselves? why are doing things to others that we nvr want others to do the same to us? why some friendship are not the same as some other friendship? why can't we treat some ppl the same way we treat some ppl?
how much does it worth of ur frienship to your friend? does he/she thinks the same way as wat you think of the friendship you all behold? and the list goes on and on....................

by all these questions, it is obvious that i can't live the life of simplicity. haa! don't tell me neither one of u thought of all these bfore.
we're not living by ourselves, we're living among ppl, ppl of the same kind. never ever let something spoils a relationship, any kind-friendship, family, romance...any kind. =)
yes, we'll get pissed off at ppl at times, but why do we want to keep that anger in us? it doesnt feel good at all. we talked about how much we appreciate on this and that, hw much we appreciate something, but the truth is, how many ppl actually meant what they say? what is the probability of you being near to what you said?
truth is, we're all afraid of facing the truth, facing what we are about to step on. we're just afraid to tell the phobia we have. the pride in all of us. if only, we can be brave enough. we are tormenting our own souls. we are given chances,what we are now depends on how we use those chance. choices are given too, so make wise choices and nver regret on it even if it turned out bad.who knws, in 10 yrs time, u turned out to be a billionaire all thanks to tat bad choice u made? haha!! who knows who knws.....

19th July 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN!!

finally, another one turned 19=)

hope we surprised u by turning up in ur house, dear. haha.

SURPRISE SURPRISE