....Bring me outta here...

save the sinking heart..

and again, the feeling came back again...

no, it's not the good one, it's the awful one..

hiding behind her own shadow. fearful to step out to see what's the reality.

why?

she knows, the reality is nothing good. it'll just upset her and disappoints her, once again

however,

hiding behind doesn't seem to help.

she realised, even by hiding..

she already know how reality is like.

" I smile, but it doesn't mean i'm alryte

I laughed doesn't mean i'm happy

I said 'i'm ok', doesn't mean i really am

so why do i say things that aren't what i feel?

most people doesn't have the courage big enough to face the truth.

they choosed to hide from it.

they choosed to avoid em'

however,

no matter how long we choosed to hide from

how far we run away from..

the problem is still there..

right?

sigh....

humans...we're all reli reli dumb dumb=(

as a student, help me to run away from exam?? nah..no one can do that..=( unfortunately!haha...

quote from rach's bloggie...nice one =)

The stupid neither forgive nor forget;

the na�ve forgive and forget; t

he wise forgive but do not forget.

GOOD GRIVESSsss

A2 exam's freggin' neaar.....

are you that kind of friend, you think you are?

It's the last day of class.

everything's coming to an end.

the love life in here ends

the relationship with the lecturers are gonna end once we left

what about the relationship with friends?

will we depart on our own seperate ways and not see each other again?

will we depart on our own seperate ways and not keep in touch with each other anymore?

will we forget each other as time passed?

we are left with not much time,

how are we gonna spend this little time together,

growing our friendship stronger rather than letting it deteriorate?

what will become of our friendship in this 2 months time?

of all the fun and crazy stuff we did together,

it sinks in my memory with smileys footprints all over.

the time we laughed, we talked , we crapped...

they are of great memories to be kept.

sorry, if we let you feel left out

sorry, if we did not feel what you feel

sorry, we've not been a good friend to you

life is short, life is unfair, life is the drawing we draw..

how colourful, how pretty, how interesting, how wonderful,

how great, how cherish-able is it, it's up to us to decide...

so,

tell me

how much do you appreciate all your friendships with every friends of yours?

Are you worth to keep?

my true friend?

p/s: girlss....i miss you all laar.......

What Does It take?

Does it even worth to put it this way?

asked.

What are the risk to start your first step on earth?

or...

stay away and never have that step taken.

Does it even worth to do what you are doing now?

Will you feel great knowing whatever ending you'll get,

you know, You have put in you best.

Even if the ending will end up scars, unseen scars...

Everyone has it...

These scars never heal...

It was said,

Time heals,

Obviously, someone's bullshitting about it....

so...

Will You regret for being where you are now?

If you regret, what will you do?

NO, there are no turning backs...

there are no... 'U' turns...

there are no... If i knew this would happened, I wouldn't have taken that step.

there are no.. 'oh no! it's not the right one, I need to do something to get it right'

there are no...

there are no...

there are no......

what if this really happens,

what will you do?

you're forced to move forward...

with that scar, forever in you

No one knows about it.

You bleed alone

You cry alone

You are left alone

Is it worth it?

In the end....

Everyone's hurt.

21st September 09'

Met with the girls- sonia, beeting, amanda fam and rachel, at Friends. As always, we talked non-stop. girlss! haha.

Then, sonia wanted satay celup so so much, actually everyone wants that...except meanie rachel=( she doenst want to fetch us. In the end, we decided to drop by dp get some sushi and drinks, then to Newton Foodcourt for moreee food to sonia' crib.=)

cheuling was already thr bfore we reach . not long after that, amanda keah(ak) met us thr. due to ak's birthday falls on the 30th, some of us cant' make it on that day, so we decided to celebrate her birthday early. we surprised her!=)

she did not suspect anthing...lucky us=)

I wish.....

Thanks to sonia's mom=)

"enjoying" the movie-the messenger 2 and lotsa violent scenes from ak and cheuling, and lotsa scary chicken laughter from our dearest rachel.....

Happy Birthday, Amanda Keah=)

How is it possible that some people always avoid facing the problem? Do they know by doing so they're torturing others?
There are also some people that are stupid enough to continue their steps knowing they'll end up dead just a few steps away. What are these people thinking?
Alryte, for the first kind,
are they just being selfish? or are they being too scared to face it? They just want to continue living as it is, praying......HARD that the problem will just go away by itself. Wrong!
As for the second kind.
are they just that stupid and blind?? cant' they just tell themselves, stop stop STOP!! you're soo gonna hurt yourself if you take another step or two.

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I Got to....

?What to do?