to know quietly rather than splattering it out. it took 10 over years to keep it, making it as tho i know nothing, but i do. so at last, it's time for me to know. don't know what kind of feeling am i supposed to show. surprised? Oh yes...i was i was...surprised that i was told in such sudden. feeling extreme guilt too. sigh.. there's nothing for me to do anymore. it is indeed too late.

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things happened for many reasons, reasons that we may or may not know. who cares ryte. if that did not happen, am stil being called .... and as for her am supposed to be called as his( another person ) ... and now look.. am no more. so as urs. nvr did think bout it bfore until it was mentioned. it gives the creep and and goosebumps to me, and sadness tends to climb up. it doesnt show, but it was felt. so how long will this feeling stays? it had stayed in me for darn dead long!!

oooh!!

yes! the picture said it all. i am, indeed BORED! AS has come to an end, and here's where my one week break starts. what am i supposed to do for this week?? damn...i am seriously bored!

apparently wat i do for the whole day was, sleep eat tv lappie movie csi songs......what else can i do? all of my friends had started their class. dears...come pui me.............

Fun-filled trip to Kukup. June 12-13 09'

filling my time with fun rather than filling it wit misery.

bags were packed, and everyone meets at E block at 8am=) everyone seems to be soo excited. you can see it tru their faces haha.

sadly the guys are such malaysians..we depart at about 8 45, had our breakfast in mcd( yea, unhealthy!) finished at about 9 smtg and off we go !

it doesnt feel tat exciting during our journey there tho=( it took us about 3hrs to reach thr. ahh...it was..hmm..a fishing village! haha!! had our lunch bfore checking into our house. it was freakishly hot !! the weather almost killed us=( haha..

well, the place was really relaxing=) with the sea around..c'mon anythng around the sea is BEAUTIFUL! tho i admit, tat place was kinda dull.hehe..but anywhr with friends will always be FUN!

let's jz skip the whole journey aite, im jz lazy to blog about the whole thing

Lets jz say, the whole thing was great=)

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It's the end of my AS exam.yay? yea...yay~ But why am i not feeling what i think i'll have? it saddens me actually. the thought of it, that it had finally come to an end

oh c'mon!!! it's the last day of AS!! am i not supposed to be happy???

Chemistry paper 2 was a disaster!

DREADFUL

oh how can CIE set such ppr? all our hardwork, all our late nights might turned out to be a waste of time.=( sigh.. please oh please...I DO NOT WANT TO RESIT! if i were to resit, things might get even tougher, with A2 and AS together?? hellll no!

6th June 2009; Friday=)

Went out with sonia, bting and rachel today. surprisingly, rachel reached on time. hehe. well, we tricked her=( told her we'll meet up at 715 but actual time is 730 haha..instead, i was the malaysian one, sorry, i was soo malaysian today, but it wasn't my fault kay.................. haha!

So, we met up at uncle john. hmm..nothing much to eat thr, flipped tru the menu several times yet couldn't make up my mind wat to eat. we shall nt go there anymore! haha..

in the end had myself a claypot yee mee and ice coke lime. the food wasn't tat bad=)

as usual...we talked and we laughed..and yeah! we gossiped! haha.. "hey! what are u talking about me??" haha.scary huh...we should lower down our voice next time yea=p

at about 10, we decided to continue our 'dinner' at ong kim wee's satay celup! yees yesss....rachel ordered her 'long long sihum' * inside joke* hehe.. as always..we talked and laughed again! man oh man..it had been ages since we actually laughed this much! especially when we were in the car...rachel and her 'nose up' laughter! hahahaa... fuunnny! and and..sonia's funny gesture! hehe..after that, non of us wana head back home, so we decided to head back to sonia's hse instead. watched some youtube videos on britain's got talent. not long after that, 'hello, daddy' time to go back=(.

yeees! it is great to haf these ppl around=) we can just laugh on anything, anything ! especially rachel...haah. even if we dun find the topic fuunny, she will..and when she laugh..well..u'll definitely laugh! she's like filled with laughing gas.hahahah! it's a good thing tho.

It is amazing looking at how happy some happy couples can be. Guy say, i love you, girl say i love you too, you mean the whole world to me, you're my angel, you're my statue,...etc etc etc. then, *snap!! * let's break up! huh? what about, you're my whole world? i love you? yeah, you can say how much love means to you, but when it comes to ending a relationship, it feels like some jet plane just flew passed u. that fast! the next minute, he/she is with someone else., telling the same oul thing..i love u; you love me. i find it pretty weird that people do things like these, free and easy. as if it really doesn't mean anything to them. what is love to you? the thing is, they even say out loud to the world the meaning of love....... if you know, if you UNDERSTAND the significance of it, you'll be the happiest couple everrr....unfortunately, many many people don't.
even to those that think they know, well, i don't thnk anyone knows it perfectly. neither do i

hurt hurt , pain pain...tears tears....they sark!!! and when u come to ur sense about all those tears u've wasted, u strengthen yourself, never to let urself cry for that particular person anymore, or...even the future guy/girl. however, these pains tends to bring fear to u too=( courage and fear comes together.the fear of stepping out again. OR some even feels that , what's the point of being together, when...everything said, may nt mean anything in the future. heck that! the bloody thing about this is, some people couldn't get themselves out from their past. hmm...they have to tho. we can't live in our past can we? takes time.
to me friend that's in this ugly................process...wake up k! that guy is not worth ur every bits of tears!! SCREW HIM! he's an idiot to do that to u=(

yes! things happened for a reason or mayb reasons. i'm not gonna get mushy mushy here bout hw much i am grateful of me friends=D.
thank you people!!! you know why? why ? why? eheh...i know can i=) just accept me 'thank you'
you you and YOU!!! you guys know who you are...=) hugs~

advices give, time given...err..unfortunately shoulders were not given. haha..

p/s: oh! to my friend, we're gonna help u kay...no worries aite. trust me, things will be okay!=D smiles ~

signing offfff.....


love
vivi