Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

2010-01-09T17:49:00.003Z

There are times when we asked ourselves ' what are am i doing?' ' who am i? ' 'whats going on with my life right now?' etc. etc...

These are the times when we feel extremely lost as we do not know where are we heading to..

Altho, things seems to be all right

Altho, everything seems to be in place..

yet am just feeling something is missing. Apart of me don't seem to be there with me which am not sure what it is or what are they. Am i thinking too much again? Yes, i know i'm suppose to be controlling my mind, controlling the things that i'm thinking about before they start taking over my emotions. I'd been trying so hard to be that person that knows how to control my own thoughts, my own feelings. bad new's i failed in doing so.

i feel so lost right now

2009-12-15T13:28:00.000Z

My health is deteriorating...sigh.

What's wrong with me...?

2009-12-09T07:32:00.005Z

Amazing,

realizing how fast time flies...

just hope time can fly in jet planes; hoping i need not to suffocate myself in any of these any longer....

Soon I'll be venturing my life in another new path..

Starting everything newly....

Let's just hope things will turn out all right......

Faith is all i can count on now..*i think*

signing off,

Viv

2009-12-03T09:37:00.003Z

Patience pays it all patience pays it all patience pays it all patience pays it all patience pays it all

but what if we are just fooling ourselves ...when things just end up the bloody way?

2009-12-03T07:29:00.004Z

pieces of memories

and i realised the only person that really says he'll always be there, is the one that i've known long ago...but there's no more turning back ... we just gotta open our eyes big enuf to see what kind of person we're into don't we? rather than, telling ourselves lies after lies just to make ourselves better of the path we've choosen. we're just learnin our way in life... it sucks!

life just wouldn't stop fucking us...neverending.......

Viv

hello boredom

2009-11-30T15:43:00.004Z

talking about boredom...urgh. Recently, am finding so many things to do for me to fill my oh so free holiday. sadly, i'm just tooo lazy to do the things that i'm supposed to be doing that's packing my things..which i've been planning to do for the last few weeks. haha. Mess is all i can say about my life now. fml.

half done=)

oh btw, this is one of the little things i did=) puzzle! the qi-kek-ness of doin puzzle haha. the satisfaction i get after getting it done is just so pleasing... but it does take up lots n lotsa patience.. sis and i did the above puzzle...

people did so many things wrong that they are not aware of,

they just need others to hit them on their head to make them realized it.

however,

it doesn't mean it's that easily to get things back to normal after realizing it....

it's easily said; but not easily done...

all the best to all...

love,

Viv.

Maggi Chicken Stalk

2009-11-26T08:17:00.003Z

I was shopping in carrefour with my mom tis afternoon..and we saw smtg really umm...funny heh.

mom wanted to buy chicken stalk..but then Maggi had 3 similar types of chicken stalk. the only different thing is they're in different language @.@

mom was wondering whats the difference between these 3...

and this was what i told her..

Viv: the mandarin one...is for chinese...the Bm oneee is for malays...the english one...is for those that duno mandarin n malay..hahahaa....(jokingly..ofcuz)

2009-11-24T09:52:00.000Z

2009-11-23T16:54:00.000Z

can anyone tell me whr cn i get a necklace like tis??

2009-11-14T18:57:00.002Z

The night we climb up

The night we sat together..

looking upon the lights of the city..

looking upon the the city..

while others are in their dreamland.

hand in hand...

we sat there..

We talked throughout the night..

We talked about our lives...

We talked about how we want our lives to be..

hand in hand..

we talked throughout the night.

The calmness in my heart is indescribable

my heart beats beat by beat...

It felt so calm as i sat right beside you...

but underneath that calmness

hides the fear..

of you leaving

hand in hand we sat..

the stars upon us shone bright ...

as we looked at the lights of the city...

The memory

you gave me can never be shade away..

beneath this smile

hides the tears..

in this cold night..

i wished you're right beside me as how you did that night..

the warmth..

the memories..

Will there be any chance for this memory to go on...?

as long as possible...

I hope....

2009-11-14T17:32:00.002Z

I'm having some kinda of brain-clogged these few weeks/days...sigh

So many things are popping in my mind...it's sooo congested now...i can't even think properly anymore. i need to find something peaceful to do..something that can really calm meself...heeelp!

2009-11-10T09:53:00.002Z

this week is just pain in the ass! no...it's ten times worst than that.

monday- physics4 and maths 7 aka stats

wednesday- chemistry 4

friday-physics 1.

the worst is having that 2 blardy science together.

i'm having sleep deprived!

i can't blardy sleep!

my head just coudlnt' stop turning...

my heart beats tremendously fast...

my body is dying...physically i'm sooooo bloody tired~!!!!

other than my studies, my head my mind just couldn't stop thinking of that thing tat haf been bothering me for months!fml...

i juts hope to stop the time and lemme get things done! wtf..

having everything half hanging is just soooo stressfull...especially on the things i care much for...

if things just can't be done, i rather stop watever connection i haf with it. sigh..

but i'm nt willing to let gooooo.......wtf

i need my sleeep.......................just stop my head from thinking when i slp pleaseee.........!!!!

2009-11-07T11:33:00.003Z

Portray a smile, a sincere smile

Portray laughters, a sincere laughter

Say things as you mean it, to gain sincerity of others

Do as you say you will, to gain trust.

Once a promise;sincerity is not done or trust,

things will not be the same for the days ahead....

2009-11-05T14:27:00.000Z

i've told myself today am nt supposed to feel any negativity

even tho if it's nt wat i feel happy about...

but.....

2009-11-05T14:09:00.006Z

remember the previous post i posted about hw happy i was when i received this from my roommie?

well......

my roommie's gonna be so so so disappointed with me when she sees this..

i accidentally knocked down my water bottle and my water bottle hit it...

soo...

it turned out this way =( >>>>

trippo !

2009-11-05T11:03:00.006Z

dang! The recent exam is definitely getting my head upside-down. not only my head but my health and....my room! omfg! my room!

This, is not my bed nor izit my clothes rack, but my roommie's. know why i post hers?

simply because, mine looks soo much teruk than hers!=(

anywhoo, you can't blame me for not cleaning slash pack my room. exam laar..i gotta pay 101% on my studies!* innocent smile* besides, i DID sweep and mop the floor last week. i think that's good enuf. talking about exam, hmm i just sat for my chemistry ppr2 and ppr 5. i won't say it's that easy nor will i say it's killing. overall was alll...ryte.. there are definitely few sub-questions here and thr tat i do not know , but i think i did pretty well to get a better result compare to the last time i took for chem2. ppr5.? well..it's easier than wat i expected =) yay me!

oh since that chem2 is oveer..i'm kinda relax nw, tho...the important and killing ones are due NEXT week. all together. KILL ME would you. oh due to the super streess and tension i had for chem2 n 5, i slpt at 7 morning, and woke up at 1230 prepared myself for 215 ppr. sooo, after ppr5 i've slpt fer...more 12 hrs i think. omg! since 730 til nxt morning...9 plus. heh. but, hello, am nt tat pig-like, i did wake up btw the hrs. so i dun think it's tat bad. hehe.

compare to yeo liren! i'm considered good. he slpt at the same time as me, but continue slping for 4-5 hrs after 2 -3 hrs of waking up. honestly, i think..he was borned a pig in his past life. haha. a fat one! know why? well, he's tat skinny now, like really...skeleton-like skinny, so i think God decided to take away all his fats from his past life hence, made him tis skinny! *evil laughter*

i know, it's nt tat funny=(

oh oh cha yee broke her sandals ystd.. by..i don't know how she did it.aha.sandals broke, slipper stolen..tat means...shopping!! yay us!

we just can't wait for the exam to end....we'll shop til we drop and and mr yeo liren wiill be our loyal driver to bring us thr? puuhhhleasssee??

neways..no matter if he will fetch or nt, we girls will be going for shopping for sure!!

ahh! the exam streesss is killin all of us inside. and..cha's craving to club is gettin' higher and higher...and and she's influencing us!! clubheads? no we're not..it'd been a vry vry long time since the last time we went kay....enuf said!

recently, i've been gettin soo many scars =(.

i have a few on both my knees, and also a bruise on my right knee and...i got a scratch on my finger..for hangin my clothes on the hanger! =( *sobs*

it hurts when i bathe...

oH! have i mentioned that my current desire now is..........

leaving my hair reli reli long!! dang ~ well...as long as i had it when i was in hmm..form 4?

yaya..tat long..or mayb longer!=) don't ask me why such a sudden..i just felt like it. i envy those girls with long long hair...they hav the patience to wait.

i've been having tis short hair for quite some time. it's time for a change baby! yeah! =P wish me luck!

this is me. at my current length=(

yea i know, loooooong way to go for my hair to be looooong

and also..i also want a wardrobe change.double dang!*dang dang!* heh..

P/s: i'm nt gonna whine about how horrible my days have been..

i'm not gonna complain about how unfair life is towards me

i'm not gonna brag about how terrible is my prob and your(anyone, ain't pointing my fingers on anyone) prob is..

i'm gonna say....

today, i'm gonna blog on a happy post!! cuz i want myself to be happy rather than bloggin on those emo shit posts! * smilessss*

i don't care how unfair is my life doing to me, well atleast for now slash today

i am gonna be happy! *smiles again!*

cuz

i don't know how emo shit will i get. my emotions are smtg like ridding a roller coaster. one word- SCARY !!! booo me.. FYI, i'm freaking scared of roller coasters. unfortunately.=( but i'd try.. one or two..or mayb 3

anywayss....

mmhmm mmhmmm....i'm gonna put a smile today!=D

life will never be fine to you everyday; every minute.

why do we want to torture ourselves with the frown??

we still gotta live tru it anyways..

so why not put a smile while facing your problems? =)

2009-11-04T10:52:00.002Z

Unable to .....

2009-11-02T08:03:00.002Z

THANK YOU

ROOMMIEEEEeeeee.........

A Little gift from my dearest roommie, sharon=)

She's sooo sweet! she made tis herself!=)

hahaa..i'm loveeed.. heh..

2009-10-31T09:15:00.002Z

I wasn't who i am today

I never cared about the little things I cared now

I never was the person that actually put so much sensitivity over things that I am now sensitive about

What is/are the reason(s) for me being who I am now?

What is/are the reason(s) for me acting this way?

Clearly,

I know why....

But

Why am I turning my back over it?

Keeping it quiet and dark as I hope it will be...

but

the fact; the truth is there...

no matter how dark and hidden i put it,

I'll always see it clear and bright....

that's life

we can never turn our backs on it...

no matter how hidden we want it to be,

one day, it'll hit back on us saying" hello, again"

over and over and over again....

Hence,

we can never feel the purely happy

AHH...screw it..

2009-10-30T13:00:00.002Z

29th October 2009....

Having just 1 hour plus of sleep; getting up preparing myself for my Chemistry Practical exam is definitely a no-no to do..

Yes! night or should i say, morning before my Chemistry Practical exam was hooorrible! i couldn't sleep, but my body was alarmin me telling me " LET ME REST!!!" my mind, " no! im stil so fresh!" boo hoo! body and mind just couldn't work together that day=(

so, i ended up sleeping at 740 waking up at 10! damn~~ 1130 was my exam...

However!

I THANK cambridge for being so so understanding,hehe..the exam wasn't that torturing unlike the the first time i took it. yes! sadly, i resit my chmi ppr....lets just hope i wont screw up tis time...

after the ppr...

duno who who who...i couldn't remember was it liren or was it cha yee that suggest or was it me?? newaysss...one of us suggested to go kl for lunch~=)

yeap! we went thr...and i was a-ooo--kay with it altho i was yawning almost the whole day ..heh.

went to Tokyo g for lunch

oH! did i mention that i met sonia thr?? finally!! after so so so long and so so so many times of wanting to meet up thr...we finally did=)

sonia came over to meet us. heh.. cha and liren was shoooo shy~ i think.=P

we talked, but just for awhile as sonia gotta leave at 5 plus and we're heading to the cinema fer...

Jennifer's boday~ woohoo...

the movie wasn't that whoaaa-ish was wat the media said it wud be.. but overall not bad.

megan fox's shooo hawt! heh...

went back inti right after the movie as all 3 of

us was so dead tired. i was already dying with tears.....yawn too many times d=( haha!

I admit! i cannot live without going out! even when i am nt supposed to!=(

hehe...

2009-10-26T06:15:00.002Z

Things wasn't running smooth recently..have been really upset over lotsa stuff...

Everything seem sooo wrong...as in really really wrong..! i couldn't even express or understand what shit feeling was i having. that kind of unknown feeling really sux that badly..

all i noe is that...i noe i'm nt happy about it, but inside of me i think i'm okay about it, but why am i nt happy about it? dang! then i noe...i'ts nt bcuz of that matter, it's bcuz of other matter that made me feel upset hence, when other nt so happy stuff happened, it made me worse.

*BANG* it just hit me soo hard...i couldn't control my emotions.=(

then,

a friend came by..

talked to me about everything. helped me to analyse the probs i'm having.

picking up the lil lil stuff that was bothering me so much... putting em' in different categories..

telling me,

they're nt important for me to care so much....whY??

cuz, they don't care about it too..why do i want to put myself into such condition whr the only person that cares' only me/....

i feel absolutely stupid after hearing that=( and honestly, i wasn't happy about wat i hear...

but...

thats the truth eh..

atleast i'll try nt to care bout em'..it's nt worth my energy after all...

as for the other stuff that's reli reli reli important to meeee......

sigh...

i'll just gotta bear it till end of nxt mth. sigh...

it's nt an easy thing to do...

However, i'm glad that i have someone to help me to think...thanks alot!

on the other hand...

nov & dec's coming!!..

pleaseeeeeeeeee.............................give me one hell of a gooood year end!!!

2009-10-24T13:49:00.004Z

One month will go by just really quickly..

Hoping this one month will be a smooth track...

Hoping as this one month goes,

it'll take away the tears and pain along with it....

2009-10-23T08:38:00.002Z

Sometimes,

We are just too engrossed over the things that we like

that we had neglected the little things that are actually important to us;

just that we are unaware of it.

blinded by the things we enjoy doing...

without fear

without worries

However, just because of these negligence,

when clock strikes,

we realised it is too late to say ' i should have notice the consequences'

then, we'll say...

'i regret'

truth is

there are no regrets...

what's the point to say

i regret?

the time had passed...

instead,

i think

we should be happy bout what had happened

regardless it being a good thing or a bad thing

why?

it is because of what had happened,

that made us who we are today....

However,

we gotta learn from it ofcuz..

do what we like, but

make sure what u're doing right now,

u wont neglect the ppl around u..

2009-10-21T04:44:00.002Z

Happy

....Glad....

give em' rainbowsss.....

2009-10-15T06:55:00.003Z

Just as we thought,

we're over of some stuff...

Just as we thought,

we've recovered from the pains..

Just as we thought,

we've gone through the tears

Just as we thought...

yeah, just as we thought..

we thought..

but we did not face them as we should be doing from the start

look at us now,

we're strangers..

we're not talking...

who are we?

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

As we go through our respective lives,

flash backs come ..

reminding us of the great memories we had..

the sad memories we had..

having many things that had happened in our lives,

we are still unable to stand up..

to say " i'm really fine.."

we're still the kid 10 years back..

the kid that needs comfort...

the kid that needs someone to pull us up..

the kid that needs someone to say,

" no worries love, I'm here for you...let me help you. stop crying.."

we're afraid to be left alone...

altho we say,

we're ok to be.

one day

2 days...3 days

sure no prob..

but as the the day goes on..

we realised being alone sucks!

girls, i'm missing ya'll

Having so many things happened in our lives..

what have we learnt from em'

or just putting the same oul..attitudes we had before

ignoring the fact that,

we're wrong...

we needa change..

it's enuf of these oulfull sight..

we needa grow up..

2009-10-10T06:04:00.002Z

it's hell out here.

yes indeed, lotsa things happened recently..neither one of em' are good or happy stuff...

rewind the time, or skip tis part ...it's nt smtg to be happy or proud of.

the heart thumps fast,

it couldn't stop...

cold hands and feet..

totally not a good thing to feel about...

2 minutes

2009-10-07T05:59:00.003Z

what's with the 2 minutes?

well, i was taking a nap tis afternoon..was reli reli tired.

bodyaching...mind suffocating..

that kind of horrible nap=(

yea then i was awake by my phone's msg tone.replied then try to go back to sleep.

before i do that, i looked at the time.

1358

2 more mins arnd my alarm clock's gonna ring..

i asked myself...

just 2 more mins and i gotta wake up...

2 mins's such a shooortt...time to sleeep.

im sure everyone'll agree wit me on tis

it's either i sleep or get my ass up

to do smtg better than sleeping

if i choosed to wake up,

i'll be using that 2 mins to do smtg better.

saving 2mins of my time in other stuff.

rather than spending 2mins of my time...

TRYING to sleep...

which i failed to do so...

sigh...

stilll....

unfortunately.....

in the end,

i choosed to sleep

argh!

just when i was about to meet mr. sandman..

my alarm rang!

2009-10-05T19:48:00.000Z

....Bring me outta here...

save the sinking heart..

2009-10-05T17:55:00.003Z

and again, the feeling came back again...

no, it's not the good one, it's the awful one..

hiding behind her own shadow. fearful to step out to see what's the reality.

why?

she knows, the reality is nothing good. it'll just upset her and disappoints her, once again

however,

hiding behind doesn't seem to help.

she realised, even by hiding..

she already know how reality is like.

" I smile, but it doesn't mean i'm alryte

I laughed doesn't mean i'm happy

I said 'i'm ok', doesn't mean i really am

so why do i say things that aren't what i feel?

most people doesn't have the courage big enough to face the truth.

they choosed to hide from it.

they choosed to avoid em'

however,

no matter how long we choosed to hide from

how far we run away from..

the problem is still there..

right?

sigh....

humans...we're all reli reli dumb dumb=(

as a student, help me to run away from exam?? nah..no one can do that..=( unfortunately!haha...

quote from rach's bloggie...nice one =)

The stupid neither forgive nor forget;

the na�ve forgive and forget; t

he wise forgive but do not forget.

2009-10-03T13:21:00.002Z

GOOD GRIVESSsss

A2 exam's freggin' neaar.....

are you that kind of friend, you think you are?

2009-10-02T03:54:00.003Z

It's the last day of class.

everything's coming to an end.

the love life in here ends

the relationship with the lecturers are gonna end once we left

what about the relationship with friends?

will we depart on our own seperate ways and not see each other again?

will we depart on our own seperate ways and not keep in touch with each other anymore?

will we forget each other as time passed?

we are left with not much time,

how are we gonna spend this little time together,

growing our friendship stronger rather than letting it deteriorate?

what will become of our friendship in this 2 months time?

of all the fun and crazy stuff we did together,

it sinks in my memory with smileys footprints all over.

the time we laughed, we talked , we crapped...

they are of great memories to be kept.

sorry, if we let you feel left out

sorry, if we did not feel what you feel

sorry, we've not been a good friend to you

life is short, life is unfair, life is the drawing we draw..

how colourful, how pretty, how interesting, how wonderful,

how great, how cherish-able is it, it's up to us to decide...

so,

tell me

how much do you appreciate all your friendships with every friends of yours?

Are you worth to keep?

my true friend?

p/s: girlss....i miss you all laar.......

What Does It take?

2009-09-27T14:16:00.003Z

Does it even worth to put it this way?

asked.

What are the risk to start your first step on earth?

or...

stay away and never have that step taken.

Does it even worth to do what you are doing now?

Will you feel great knowing whatever ending you'll get,

you know, You have put in you best.

Even if the ending will end up scars, unseen scars...

Everyone has it...

These scars never heal...

It was said,

Time heals,

Obviously, someone's bullshitting about it....

so...

Will You regret for being where you are now?

If you regret, what will you do?

NO, there are no turning backs...

there are no... 'U' turns...

there are no... If i knew this would happened, I wouldn't have taken that step.

there are no.. 'oh no! it's not the right one, I need to do something to get it right'

there are no...

there are no......

what if this really happens,

what will you do?

you're forced to move forward...

with that scar, forever in you

No one knows about it.

You bleed alone

You cry alone

You are left alone

Is it worth it?

In the end....

Everyone's hurt.

2009-09-24T05:02:00.007Z

21st September 09'

Met with the girls- sonia, beeting, amanda fam and rachel, at Friends. As always, we talked non-stop. girlss! haha.

Then, sonia wanted satay celup so so much, actually everyone wants that...except meanie rachel=( she doenst want to fetch us. In the end, we decided to drop by dp get some sushi and drinks, then to Newton Foodcourt for moreee food to sonia' crib.=)

cheuling was already thr bfore we reach . not long after that, amanda keah(ak) met us thr. due to ak's birthday falls on the 30th, some of us cant' make it on that day, so we decided to celebrate her birthday early. we surprised her!=)

she did not suspect anthing...lucky us=)

I wish.....

Thanks to sonia's mom=)

"enjoying" the movie-the messenger 2 and lotsa violent scenes from ak and cheuling, and lotsa scary chicken laughter from our dearest rachel.....

Happy Birthday, Amanda Keah=)

2009-09-21T08:12:00.003Z

How is it possible that some people always avoid facing the problem? Do they know by doing so they're torturing others?
There are also some people that are stupid enough to continue their steps knowing they'll end up dead just a few steps away. What are these people thinking?
Alryte, for the first kind,
are they just being selfish? or are they being too scared to face it? They just want to continue living as it is, praying......HARD that the problem will just go away by itself. Wrong!
As for the second kind.
are they just that stupid and blind?? cant' they just tell themselves, stop stop STOP!! you're soo gonna hurt yourself if you take another step or two.

+ + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + +

2009-09-20T12:36:00.002Z

I Got to....

?What to do?

reaching out to the end

2009-09-14T11:00:00.002Z

it's mock exam week yet i'm nt even prepared for any subject. not just me, but my frens too? heh.just to make myself feel better for not studying, which doesn't help much. if i don't start now, as in NOW i'm really really gonna be sooo dead! *kill me*

for the past 3weeks being away from home; staying here-Nilai, was trully something something what college students do? haha. alryte...not just these 3 weeks but for the past feeeww....weeks even bfore sem break. parents will be furious about what we do- spending much much of their money * sorry dad+mom*, despite the spending part, we had hell lotsa fun, didnt we?

A2's in a month plus away, A-level ends there. everyone will be going on their own life, seperately. some might be meeting in the same uni but some will be away; soon... we'll lost contact. The End.

people come and go of our life, leaving footprints; as they move on, we're left with just memories. we might not be seeing each other, all we see are just old pictures of us, old memories. who knows, as time passed we might even forget each other. one day, we might meet up. recalling the great memories we had together, laughing much about it. just as sonia and i talked bout it few weeks ago. hee

oooo..raya's coming, i'm going back homeee...BEETING i MISS YOU! * sonia, rach and karen, i miss bting more...hehheee..*

2009-09-07T11:32:00.002Z

hello there earth-things. This site have been left alone for some time, it came to me saying ' oh owner vivian toh, im shooo lonely here, update me with something interesting puhleaseeee..., i'll DIEeeeee.....!' sadly to say, nothing interesting happen for the last few weeks. had been oh so dull. Forgive me bloggie.
well! in fact, there's really sometg to talk about. guess what? aha! boring oh studies- A2-level!
aiks! we're left with only a mth plus to go, and err.....how much preparation have i done? damn.....

forget out exam aite. it gives me butterfly tummy=(
aha! rachel miss usss....yes dear, we're missing u too! just that we're all so busy with our studies. hang on thr aite, i'll be teman-ing u 24/7 nxt year. u'll be soooo sick of me! eeeek!

haaar....save me people!!! how the hell am i supposed to go thru ths?? what are they? everything! i feel so tight-up by everything that happens around me. the people the things....urgh~ everything!
even even even..sometimes, the things u think it's over does come back to u. sometimes, things are so f-ed up u tend to ignore it, but the actual fact is, it's a big thing to think about. then, when u start to think about it, u'll get so...soo....wats the word to usee......soo....ish! u get wat i mean ryte? ha..yea..life is never a bed of roses.
we people tends to take things for granted=( the nature of human. eek! imma human toooo.....

THE BE CONTINUE.....

p/s: im just too bored thats why i write tis, im just too lazy to continue this. wheeeeeee~=(

2009-08-25T17:36:00.002Z

awesome post from Rachel
read it=) it might help us in life....
it makes so much sense, but i haf to admit that im awfully stubborn to follow=(
well, we..okok. i..i noe i should be doing this and that and not this and that..but im nt doin the i-shud-be-doing stuff, instead i go for i-shud-not. eg: IM SUPPOSED TO BE STUDING NOW!!! *GREAT!*

well, just read it aite=) it's good..

2009-08-24T07:22:00.002Z

dang! 2 weeks had passed.... That means, we are left with one week of holiday which means exam's drawing nearer to us. okay, that sux!
I've been wasting hell lots of my time during this holiday. Dad's non-stop naggin bout me needing to start studying/revising my work has been going on and on for this 3 weeks=( . I know! He's doing this for my own good, but why can't I get myself awake to see the mess I've gotten myself into, after that horrible horrible AS.
Teevo had alwayssss been there for me for these 2 weeks, hehe. He had..hmm mayb is a she..anyways, i prefer it to be a he, yea so he sticked to me, or shall i rephrase it, I stick to him almost the entire day! However, damn Astro doesn't like to give out goood movies for me=( , still...whether there are good or bad or boring or stupid shows going on, i'll still stick to him. i've turned to be a couch potato=( I dun want to~ seriously, i dun like to be tat laaar...hehe. forceed to neee....*innocent*

something cool i did was..ehem! bake cupcakes!!! woohooo~ they taste great!=D am shoooo proud of myself!!!
sorry, no pics was taken=( but trust me, they do..................DO taste gooood!
hahaaaa

alryte, alryte!!! i gotta get back to my books!
ciaoz

viv

2009-08-22T04:24:00.005Z

Yesterday,

22nd Aug 09' , my aunt called us( me mom n dad) to go for a dinner at Pay Fong High School for a dinner- Melodian's Charity Outreach. This dinner was organized by the peranakans of Singapore and Malaysia.To be honest, the dinner was kinda...boring, but the cool thing about it is tat they have dances not performance kind of dances, but they have a dance floor=)/ BUT.....the ppl that dance are..haha..old ppl heh. man n woman. ooh! i tell u....dun look down on them haar.. they CAN really dance. and not jz line dance, they can even dance those hot hot dance. and and and...they can reli shake their bodaaaysss..

line dance.love it! =)t

the slow dance. aww...those old couples are shoooo cute~ hahaa..

oh~ there's this stage performance by a group of dancers called The GP Dancers. haha. u noe wat's so special about them? heh...they're ehem! ah guass..

i tell ya...gals will dieee....to haf their bodies.=( sorry, no pics were taken .

well, overall, everything was alryte... food wasnt tat nice.watching those old uncles and aunties are pretty entertaining. ooooooooooooooh!!!! i forgotten smtg! i saw my ex-principal thr, dancing=) ooh! she can really shake haha~

tats all for tis tym.. til the nxt post..ciaoz

\viv\

2009-08-07T11:48:00.001Z

HAPPY!! for now, that i'm home. YESsssssss~ finally i'm back. need to get my head straight for these coming few weeks

the haze is bad!! really really really bad.............my shirt smells each time i step out.=( tats how bad the haze is now...take care ppl...~
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cy popped a question to me. surprised, tat i never had thought of it bfore.
it's not that i do not want to tell out wat i think, it's that i find it rather difficult for me to put them in words and sometimes, i find it better off without telling out. better for you and me. mutual benefits, u noe..
yes, thr are times i regret for not telling. tis contradicts man....
how nice wud it be if i can spill evrything i want ppl to noe...how nice wud it be if ppl knows how i feel and wat am i thinking. sonia, will tat be?

7 weeks had passed! and u noe wat...that had been the most happening 7 weeks of my time in INTI. how long haf i been thr? 1 year and out of that 1 yr, i had had the most eventful 7 weeks thr. thanks to em'=)many things had happened for that passed 7 weeks. good and bad...u name it. but i think most of them are pretty much of the good side haha. parents might kill us for all of the good things we did, but hey...tats wat we do in college ryte? heh. my sis gonna kill me instead=(
anyways... im glad tat i know these ppl, tho we met kinda late, we're kinda slow in making frens huh. still..it is indeed better than never ryte.=), nuff said.

there're things in life that we gotta do for the best of everyone. whichever decisions we make, might end up hurting someone, that someone might be yourself or someone else. whoever it is, once made, we gotta make sure we wont regret for wat was made.
choices...that's wat all of us have to do. good or bad? right or wrong..? i don't know. rationally...yea,we haf to....
think rationally huh. arhh...i'm wrong i'm wrong i always have been!!

2009-08-05T12:16:00.003Z

Puny here's sad. I have no idea what's going on with myself. I feel oh-so-paranoid about everything=( it sarks! I just want to go home. Really in need of you girls with me now.. and home! i need my mom, i need my dad and i need my sis!!! *sigh*

For every good things, there'll definitely be something bad behind. For every bad things, there'll definitely be something good behind. yea yea..i KNOW! but what i'm having now is simply HORRIBLE! =( i neeeed help here , girlsss...i just want to hang out wit y'll!

YES, i had fun here...the friends here are great...but i missed y'll. i NEED TO TALK!!!

oh oh..im going back malacca tmr!!!!

viv

2009-08-01T21:33:00.004Z

the world is in sucha mess. abused. bombs. rapes. robberies. terroism. any kind, u name it. wonder where on earth does the word 'peace' ever come from, to exists in this world. it just came to my mind about how horribly this can be. how humans had turned into. said,' we're here for your benefits' ahh..bullshit! truth is, thy're just doing those 'good' things fer yourselves.
mind me, i'm just spitting out wat i think, suddenly..=(
what are we doing to ourselves? our lifee....? living for your own, or....for othersss??

what made you laugh today? who made you laugh today? who made you pissed? who made you cry? who made you moody? who made you see things clearer today? are you a better person today than yesterday? or are you worser than yesterday? are you a lil more matured today than yesterdaY? what good haf you done today? .......... =(

people i care...good night!

signing off....

viv

Ramdom

2009-07-31T13:27:00.003Z

i'm gettin' lazier by day. spent whole day in my room today. what haf i been doing? aha, u'd be surprised! i cleaned my fan! ah.. my room's windy now. with such horrible weather i really need this clean fan. feeling oh-so satisfied that my room is finally clean! not that it wasn't before, atleast it is cleanER now. yea notice the -er ?

AS results' coming out pretty soon. i'm sooo anxious about it.

sigh~ daddy probably gonna be disappointed again. holidays are coming too. which means, this sem gonna end soooon. WHICH means....a-level's gonna finish.WHICH means...i'm leaving INTI soon. beat that! seems like i just enrolled ystd. haha. blardy fast huh.

the weird part is that, we, friends are this close only after 1 year of knowing each other.that's right! after on ONE year of studying in the same classs. still no matter how long we noe each other, these ppl are hillariously fun to hang out with. =D tats the good side, as for the bad side.. hehe... i'll keep tat to myself then;)

*cough* yeap am still coughing....ouh~

I wanna go back home! i miss my mama...=(

2009-07-29T11:22:00.004Z

Have been coughing terribly.it feels horrible, the itchiness of me throat and the muscle aching of me tummy=(. and and... i gotta take about 30 mins to get myself stop coughing and sleep. urgh!

oh and and..the ugliness of eating medicine! it taste baaaddd.............

horrible i tell ya..

2009-07-24T14:40:00.003Z

Do you know what's worth fighting for?

When it's not worth dying for?

Does it take your breath away?

And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?

And you look for a place to hide?

Did someone break your heart inside?

You're in ruins

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms, give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms to the sky, you and i

Did you try to live your own

When you burnt down the house and home?

Did you stand too close to the fire

Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's to to live and let die

And you can't get another try

Something inside this heart has died

you're in ruins

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms, give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms to the sky

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms, give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms to the sky, you and i

i heart Green day

2009-07-24T05:02:00.003Z

Simplicity. How much does it affect your life? Complications? trully life is kinda eff-ed up now. why? i missed the old times. the times where we need not to think of soo many things, everything was kept simple. and and..you know wat? everyone was happy! now, we gotta think of this and that, this and that. urgh. it's just so not right! had had enough of all these dramas in life. we're complaining here, yet we have no idea how fortunate we are right now. Humans are never never never satisfied with what they possessed. we have this, we want that. we tend to compare with others, what's worse is that we compare with those which are better than us. hmm, why can't we ever thought of those tat are worse than us? mayb, by doing tat we will feel alot better, er not alot better or even mayb, but definitely feel blessed with everything we have now. rather than putting our puny minds on things that make us looking ugly in any way. yes, by comparing with the better ones does make us want to improve on ourselves, but i dun see any good if we were to compare so much with others. why can't we just live for ourselves and not others? we are just never satisfied with what we have. that's freaking saddening for all humankind. ouh~
we're what? just 19 yrs old? we have soo many many more years ahead of us. why aren't we learning from what we have now? why do we tend to make everything seem so complicated and end-of-the-world kind? why do some of us thinks things as thought it doesnt matter at all? why do some of us thinks smtg is impossible to reach but the fact is it is? why do we want to act we're like grown ups but the actual fact is we're far far far away from it? why do we want to act child-like when we want others to think we're matured enuf? why are we not appreciating what we have now? why are we not appreciating the friendship we have now? why can't we ever ever learnt from our mistakes? why do we keep on repeating the same mistake over and over and over again? why do we think things soo simple yet we thought we think it complicated? why can't we stop bitching bout others and for the first time think of wat others think? why can't we be mature enough to understand the world around us? what are we going to do with our life? what is the purpose of us being here? what kind of future do you want? what are we supposed to do with ourselves if we screw our life now? why are we disappointing our parents over and over again? why can't we think of how our parents feel each time we're about to disappoint them? why are we so hard-headed? why do friends bitch about friends? why do we want to make each other upset when we hate ppl doing that to ourselves? why are doing things to others that we nvr want others to do the same to us? why some friendship are not the same as some other friendship? why can't we treat some ppl the same way we treat some ppl?
how much does it worth of ur frienship to your friend? does he/she thinks the same way as wat you think of the friendship you all behold? and the list goes on and on....................

by all these questions, it is obvious that i can't live the life of simplicity. haa! don't tell me neither one of u thought of all these bfore.
we're not living by ourselves, we're living among ppl, ppl of the same kind. never ever let something spoils a relationship, any kind-friendship, family, romance...any kind. =)
yes, we'll get pissed off at ppl at times, but why do we want to keep that anger in us? it doesnt feel good at all. we talked about how much we appreciate on this and that, hw much we appreciate something, but the truth is, how many ppl actually meant what they say? what is the probability of you being near to what you said?
truth is, we're all afraid of facing the truth, facing what we are about to step on. we're just afraid to tell the phobia we have. the pride in all of us. if only, we can be brave enough. we are tormenting our own souls. we are given chances,what we are now depends on how we use those chance. choices are given too, so make wise choices and nver regret on it even if it turned out bad.who knws, in 10 yrs time, u turned out to be a billionaire all thanks to tat bad choice u made? haha!! who knows who knws.....

2009-07-21T08:13:00.002Z

19th July 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN!!

finally, another one turned 19=)

hope we surprised u by turning up in ur house, dear. haha.

SURPRISE SURPRISE

2009-06-30T15:11:00.002Z

.anger.horrified.shocked.disappointment.

die u, emotions.
die u, concentrations.
die u, problems.
die u, die u, die u...

pride concurs most part. lost it, kills it.

2009-06-30T14:51:00.007Z

Tuesday

30th June 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

~SHEUE LI~

Sweet and loving dear sheue li. she has the most undying personality tat make us love her! teary teary gal.. she cries kinda easily=( haha.. ouh! i reli hope what we did, DID surprise you. haha. well, i've said wat i want to say to u d aite. so...

we just hope you had a great one this year!! *hugs n kisses*

WE LOVE YOU too!

p/s: do rmb the kiss i asked for haha

.love.

Viv

2009-06-28T11:14:00.009Z

From left(top): yi ching, eddy, jackson aka big bro, and sorry i forgotten ur name=(

(bottom): cha yee, peijie, vivian, jiaqi

Saturday, 27th June 2009

simply a wonderful night out!

eddy picked us up at bout 10 plus, left inti at around 10 plus near 11. hmm..okok. guess it was exactly after 11. Malaysians we are=( mayb not me haha. yeah..off we went to Times Square. ooh! whn was the last time i went thr?
had a blastful shopping day hehe. tho ntg much were bought, but the awesomeness of having friends together hunting for dreesss, trying out dozens of dresses. fitting in and out of them is sooo cool! haha..loved it!

helped out qiqi to hunt for her dress, n cha and myself for heels hehe. it was extremely tiring to try out oh so many pairs of heels. size 4 size..size7 size8 size size size.... i pity the salesboy. bet he find us extremely ma fan. helping us out with shoes..getting the sizes. and he even gave us his opinion of the heels aww hw nice of him=)

and and and...jackson brought us to this wonderful beautiful oh so gorgeous place-lookout point. hmm..i think tat place is called tat. neways..tat place is jz simply beautifuL! having out dinner looking out at the night view of the whole kl. imagine that!

had our dinner thr, yes it was expensive. well, we paid for the view =) shud be alryte..
went up to this pondok,quite a high one, to see the view...and smtg tragic happened- peijie's handphone.

im sure u noe what happened

after that, off we went to putrajaya for the night view. oh me goodiness....the bridges were oh so pweety... putrajaya is way...different from wat we see in malaysia haha. even the lamp pole nicer

jokes, laughters were everywhere during the whole day. so yea... great day!=)

however, the day didnt end well, for me. still, thanks for the day=)

signing off

vivian

2009-06-24T17:06:00.001Z

viv

wake up!

.....please...

2009-06-23T14:01:00.004Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MARIA=D

aka, Rachel Ong!

buddies since form1. She's amazingly..blur. and also famous for her non stop laughter haaha

bet ya, this is the one birthday you'll never never forget, and if u do, well...beware! haha..

ouh~ someone gt prank by Fly.fm ryte. haha..seee...no one forgets ur bday kay. WE LOVE YOU!

dun u ever think we'll neglect u aite...

as i told u bfore,

let's make this vry day the new chapter aite. no sad sad d ah..haha. u sad one time we smack u one time ! haha.

We love u loads!

HAPPY 5th BIRTHDAY!! hehe

2009-06-20T06:08:00.006Z

Friday 19th June 2009

I DROVE! hehe.. yeah, i know it might not be a big thing for anyone of u out thr, but hey! it was for me kay. it was fun actually haha. without mummy thr frightening me each time=)

ahh yes! Sonia came to my hse at about 1059( according to her ) but i think she was late haha. neways..we reached dp at 11 plus walked around dp n mp few times, talking laughing..haha.

soon at about 12, met up with rach and off we go to sibaraku. yes japanese food! aha u guessed it, we talked! we laughed we gossip? oh er..exchange opinions! haha..we were so bloated after the meal. and thanks to rachel! she made us laughed and laughed and laughed soooo much til our stomach and chest hurts=(

rachel aka maria, our maid=), holding the coke for me to drink.

oh! and she screamed!!! in the mall..ahah..thanks to mr moth=( so paiseh noe.hehe. oh and she frightened an elderly couple too.kesian them. non stopped laughter continues til in the cinema. shyt wei...everyone in the cinema was looking at us crazy girls..laughing for duno wat reason. haha. rachel was toooo afraid to sit at the side. she wouldnt want to exchange seats wit me or sonia=( haha..

cuz of that! we couldnt resist to kacau her bout the old lady in the movie oh yar..btw, we watched drag me to hell. it wasnt scary, but shocking.

i noe...it's so evil of me n sonia to tease rachel so much bout that old lady. hehe but it was sooo fun! we had hella fun ! rachel was so scared that she tricked us to teman her back to her car hehee..

hey rachel! remember remember to tell that old lady we say hi each time u see her k=P

hehe. she might hate us for that! =(

they made my day=) it had been a long long time since i had such laughter=) they're just amazing people to be around with! love u girls! =D

read sonia's blog on this=) im sure it's much nicer than mine =) http://boredomstriked.blogspot.com

2009-06-17T14:23:00.002Z

" do not leave someone for someone" said by someone to me long ago. "feelings can find back"
so where should i find mine??

2009-06-17T09:06:00.003Z

to know quietly rather than splattering it out. it took 10 over years to keep it, making it as tho i know nothing, but i do. so at last, it's time for me to know. don't know what kind of feeling am i supposed to show. surprised? Oh yes...i was i was...surprised that i was told in such sudden. feeling extreme guilt too. sigh.. there's nothing for me to do anymore. it is indeed too late.

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things happened for many reasons, reasons that we may or may not know. who cares ryte. if that did not happen, am stil being called .... and as for her am supposed to be called as his( another person ) ... and now look.. am no more. so as urs. nvr did think bout it bfore until it was mentioned. it gives the creep and and goosebumps to me, and sadness tends to climb up. it doesnt show, but it was felt. so how long will this feeling stays? it had stayed in me for darn dead long!!

oooh!!

2009-06-16T13:31:00.002Z

yes! the picture said it all. i am, indeed BORED! AS has come to an end, and here's where my one week break starts. what am i supposed to do for this week?? damn...i am seriously bored!

apparently wat i do for the whole day was, sleep eat tv lappie movie csi songs......what else can i do? all of my friends had started their class. dears...come pui me.............

2009-06-15T08:19:00.005Z

Fun-filled trip to Kukup. June 12-13 09'

filling my time with fun rather than filling it wit misery.

bags were packed, and everyone meets at E block at 8am=) everyone seems to be soo excited. you can see it tru their faces haha.

sadly the guys are such malaysians..we depart at about 8 45, had our breakfast in mcd( yea, unhealthy!) finished at about 9 smtg and off we go !

it doesnt feel tat exciting during our journey there tho=( it took us about 3hrs to reach thr. ahh...it was..hmm..a fishing village! haha!! had our lunch bfore checking into our house. it was freakishly hot !! the weather almost killed us=( haha..

well, the place was really relaxing=) with the sea around..c'mon anythng around the sea is BEAUTIFUL! tho i admit, tat place was kinda dull.hehe..but anywhr with friends will always be FUN!

let's jz skip the whole journey aite, im jz lazy to blog about the whole thing

Lets jz say, the whole thing was great=)

2009-06-14T02:22:00.002Z

Announcement!

'Supercalifragillisticexpialidocious' is underconstruction.
sorry for the inconvenience, blame the constructor=P
be right back real soon=)

owner,
viv

2009-06-10T10:56:00.005Z

It's the end of my AS exam.yay? yea...yay~ But why am i not feeling what i think i'll have? it saddens me actually. the thought of it, that it had finally come to an end

oh c'mon!!! it's the last day of AS!! am i not supposed to be happy???

2009-06-08T04:16:00.002Z

Chemistry paper 2 was a disaster!

DREADFUL

oh how can CIE set such ppr? all our hardwork, all our late nights might turned out to be a waste of time.=( sigh.. please oh please...I DO NOT WANT TO RESIT! if i were to resit, things might get even tougher, with A2 and AS together?? hellll no!

2009-06-05T17:30:00.005Z

6th June 2009; Friday=)

Went out with sonia, bting and rachel today. surprisingly, rachel reached on time. hehe. well, we tricked her=( told her we'll meet up at 715 but actual time is 730 haha..instead, i was the malaysian one, sorry, i was soo malaysian today, but it wasn't my fault kay.................. haha!

So, we met up at uncle john. hmm..nothing much to eat thr, flipped tru the menu several times yet couldn't make up my mind wat to eat. we shall nt go there anymore! haha..

in the end had myself a claypot yee mee and ice coke lime. the food wasn't tat bad=)

as usual...we talked and we laughed..and yeah! we gossiped! haha.. "hey! what are u talking about me??" haha.scary huh...we should lower down our voice next time yea=p

at about 10, we decided to continue our 'dinner' at ong kim wee's satay celup! yees yesss....rachel ordered her 'long long sihum' * inside joke* hehe.. as always..we talked and laughed again! man oh man..it had been ages since we actually laughed this much! especially when we were in the car...rachel and her 'nose up' laughter! hahahaa... fuunnny! and and..sonia's funny gesture! hehe..after that, non of us wana head back home, so we decided to head back to sonia's hse instead. watched some youtube videos on britain's got talent. not long after that, 'hello, daddy' time to go back=(.

yeees! it is great to haf these ppl around=) we can just laugh on anything, anything ! especially rachel...haah. even if we dun find the topic fuunny, she will..and when she laugh..well..u'll definitely laugh! she's like filled with laughing gas.hahahah! it's a good thing tho.

2009-06-04T09:25:00.002Z

It is amazing looking at how happy some happy couples can be. Guy say, i love you, girl say i love you too, you mean the whole world to me, you're my angel, you're my statue,...etc etc etc. then, *snap!! * let's break up! huh? what about, you're my whole world? i love you? yeah, you can say how much love means to you, but when it comes to ending a relationship, it feels like some jet plane just flew passed u. that fast! the next minute, he/she is with someone else., telling the same oul thing..i love u; you love me. i find it pretty weird that people do things like these, free and easy. as if it really doesn't mean anything to them. what is love to you? the thing is, they even say out loud to the world the meaning of love....... if you know, if you UNDERSTAND the significance of it, you'll be the happiest couple everrr....unfortunately, many many people don't.
even to those that think they know, well, i don't thnk anyone knows it perfectly. neither do i

hurt hurt , pain pain...tears tears....they sark!!! and when u come to ur sense about all those tears u've wasted, u strengthen yourself, never to let urself cry for that particular person anymore, or...even the future guy/girl. however, these pains tends to bring fear to u too=( courage and fear comes together.the fear of stepping out again. OR some even feels that , what's the point of being together, when...everything said, may nt mean anything in the future. heck that! the bloody thing about this is, some people couldn't get themselves out from their past. hmm...they have to tho. we can't live in our past can we? takes time.
to me friend that's in this ugly................process...wake up k! that guy is not worth ur every bits of tears!! SCREW HIM! he's an idiot to do that to u=(

yes! things happened for a reason or mayb reasons. i'm not gonna get mushy mushy here bout hw much i am grateful of me friends=D.
thank you people!!! you know why? why ? why? eheh...i know can i=) just accept me 'thank you'
you you and YOU!!! you guys know who you are...=) hugs~

advices give, time given...err..unfortunately shoulders were not given. haha..

p/s: oh! to my friend, we're gonna help u kay...no worries aite. trust me, things will be okay!=D smiles ~

signing offfff.....

love
vivi

2009-05-26T08:55:00.004Z

are you ready kids? aye aye captain!

Fighting crime trying to save the world.
Chemical X! =P

hello kids! it's Barney~

the purple dinasour

haha..it's reli funny looking back at al the i-used-watch cartoons. well, i can't reli remember all of them.Spongebob is still the i-am-still watching cartoon haha. as for barney? no waY! hahaha...

what other cartoons do you watch? it feels reli reli great to be a kid.living without worries. however, kids nowadays are trying to dress up/ act like adults. haih~

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oh btw! i saw something disgusting again! first apple..

now.!

yogurt! eewwww....

2009-05-25T06:57:00.001Z

WATCH THIS! if it doesn't change your way of thinkin...SCREW you!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H8ZuKF3dxCY&feature=player_embedded

random meaningless post=( im jst boree=(

2009-05-24T17:13:00.001Z

okAY! time to really really rest!
my body can't take it anymore...im EXHAUSTED!! =(
sleepy time! hahhaa

2009-05-24T15:58:00.002Z

Affair has been going on in most married couples as either one of them, the wife or the husband's needs were not satisfied. Hence, as things continue to worsen, he/she tends to have an affair with someone else that is able to fulfill their needs. If this affair continues for long, love grows. In the end, it will definitely be awfully difficult to break that relationship. Well, I'm sure u'll noe what will happene to the marriage -divorce~=(

5 needs of a woman:

# 1 Affection

symbolises :-security

-protection

-comfort

-approval

# 2 Conversation

no good communication, no relationship

# 3 Honesty and openness

- honestly is the best insurance of marriage

truth hurts, but lies are worse

# 4 Financial Support=)

- Financial security one of the deep security for wives.

# 5 Family Commitment from man

does he spend enough time with the family?

does he commit himself to the family?

how does he handle the kids/family?

5 needs of man

#1 Sexual fulfilment

hmmm...

#2 Recreational Companionship

Spending quality times with each other than to spend it with someone else. Shares the most enjoyable time of your life with your spouse.

# 3 Attractive spouse

Attractive is what you do with what you have. Ladies, do not make yourself looking haggard in front of you hubby. Yes, you want him to love you for who you are, but physically, you too gotta take care. Increase your self-esteem!

" My self-esteem is the foundation of my life"

# 4 Domestic support

Needs peace and quiet at home. A noisy, unpeaceful home drives the man away thus, he'll seek a quiet place away from home=(

# 5 Admiration

He needs her to be proud of him than to look down on him. Admiration motivates their self-esteem. =)

Understand your spouse/ the other half, gives honour and love em' =)

and

RESPECT

by: Rev. Dr. Kong Hee

2009-05-24T10:47:00.002Z

it saddens me to think that all of my darlings are gonna finish their exam and im not=( good for them, bad for me. they'll be able to run free happily, and me? covering myself with tonnes of chemistry....physicss......mathsss....sigh~ the thought of it even scare the shit outta me. what suckish the most is, by looking at them enjoying their holiday makes me feel like i am too, when i am not supposed to.wth.

i am pretty sure that all of my friends here are facing the same problem as me. ouh~ =(

2009-05-22T17:17:00.004Z

It was never easy, it is never easy. It doesn't take up a day to recover weeks to recover. The neverending roud to the exit is definitely exhausting, no one said it will be easy. No one person that walked out throught that exit saying it is easy. How many more steps to my exit? I don't know. But i'm praying hard that I am just a few steps away from it. Throughout these path, i've seen things that i want, but had hidden myself from the truth. same time, i'd also seen things that are beyong my expectations, which eventually caused more bumps. However, I do belief things will turned out to be alryte after that exit. soon...soon....i'll reach!

2009-05-21T20:38:00.002Z

it's 448am! IM HUNGRY!!!! dinner cosists of....

*drums roll*

M&M's=D biscuits and water=(

2009-05-21T14:59:00.002Z

HapPY POST!

I wonder how disgusting people can get, why wud i say that? ha! if my sis were to read tis post she'll be thinking .....* weeellll...i'll keep tat between me n my sis=P* neways....yea how disgusting ppl cn get? example! there's tis rotten EATEN apple in one of the shower compartment! eew! whoever that person is..she's bathing while eating her apple? how? okay..i don't mind eating in the washroom, but! eating while showering?? haha..go figure~

2009-05-15T08:30:00.003Z

Yesterday was a..spontaneous journey hehe. as, i jumped into the Airport liner wit Cha and off we go to Seremban! taddaaa! im back home! which, i am NOT supposed to be now=( HOME!

well...i got homesick and got reli reli reli bored staying in my hostel. fWhy?? well! smart ass me, decided not to take my laptop up, all i faced was just my BOOKS!!! fer more than a weeek...mayb more than that. that makes me look super smart, but hell no! i am not! i was rotting in my room!! seriously, who'll survive in such condition?? bOOKS and OONLY BOOKSS! only electronics in my room, which are my source of entertainment are my phone and mp3. what else? hmmm..oh yea story BOOK and my magazine. thats all. there were days i don't come out from my room AT ALL for the WHOLE day..sigh.

D.E.P.P.R.E.S.S.I.G!

those days are over i tell ya! haha.still...i'm not supposed..umm..no! i CAN'T slash MUST NOT slash FORBIDDEN haha..to spend so much of my time on9, checking on mails....chats..and most importantly..muveessssss...and can't on me laptop that often.sigh..UNTIL i finish my AS which is...urgh..JUNE! HAIH~~~~~~~~~~

kays then...times up! gotta get back to me books.BOOKS again!

p/s: ppl...kawan kawan sekalian(you know hu u ppl are=P ) we need to hang out after our exams aite!!! we memborontak exams! hehe...miss y'all!

take care

luv
vivian

2009-05-09T13:02:00.002Z

I have enough of cuts

wounds that are not healed yet cut again

giving out a loud scream for help

everyone hears but

you.

Have you forgotten?

I can bear no longer

so I decided to run away

Goodbye

I will not ask for more from you

I had enought of wounds

I look Ugly!

SUPER

I want back my life

my life which I never have to cry

and plead for help from others

My life

which I smile everyday with no worries

from day to night

but not,

with a tears i couldn't bear

God

please help me in this.

I'd decided to step out

and

Forgive

take away my all of this, please.

Tomorrow!

A new day

THE ONE

I've always prayed for, please.

2009-05-09T08:31:00.002Z

Amazingly BORED. yea, u heard me, BORED. Haf been studying fer weeks.. and my exam haf not even start.ntg much happened for the past few weeks, dull and boring, which means books is all i haf now.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Things can't be the same now/things aren't the same now, i can't continue to be wondering around me past hoping to bring it to the future. We can't bring the past to the future!
mmhmm.... tats it then.
Wendy asked me, do i know the meaning of " love and lust" i was like...huh?!
lust is not in the sense of sexually duh~ neways.. she said, if u love someone u wouldn't go stalking someone or keep wanting that person back( if tat person doesn't u noe, haf feelings fer u nymore) so... lust is like, u must own that person," ooh! i must haf u i must haf u...!"
soo...yea, if u love u'd love that person to be happy and yea, forgive fer wtv tat had happened.
I respect the decisions made, i wud love the haf back the love, but then, i won't want someone tat doesnt love me anymore, it will only bring pain.
Forgive,i shall. and nvr gonna bring up any of me sad stuff again

u wouldn't understand, but it is not important. all i need now is u, to be happy and tat is the important one now, and not to let yerself get hurt. memories are kept in me heart whr i'll cherish it, no matter good or bad. it is impossible fer me to forget, but i forgive as i'll go on my own road and not turn back, as u had already did. i cherish every bit of the memories we had, and i thank God that he'd given me the chance to keep them and haf them. it is not my liking to turn out tis way, somehow it did, i bow down to fate and fate shall bring me to whr i shud be. Fate had brought u away from me, and had brought u to another, and God shall bless y'all, as He did fer us. i'm sorry, i said words that harsh u lose ur respect, im sorry. i pray tat one day, we can atleast say 'hi' to each other.

I'm HUNGRY hahaa.. random i noe. i am reli hungry now=(

2009-05-01T17:54:00.002Z

Do You Belief In Miracles?

Do you?Haf u ever experience a miracle in ur life? I do blif in it, just that i've yet to experience it, sad huh?

I'm tired of everything that had happened.
It is so unfair that things happened without your liking, and go to the way what others want it to be. yea, some say, you're meant to hav much better than what you wnt, oh just forget bout it. If this happens to u, can u ? can you JUST let go? no, i'm not blaming anyone for the wonderful advices, i'm just tired of the hell i'm going tru here, the confusion, the questions that will nvr be answered. hey! i'm dealing with it alryte... i'm human. im doing pretty good d kay. i get frustrated easily, i lost my mood easily. wth. can't life be the way it used to be, when we were kids? living without much worries...oh that sensation~
I won't be crying over some people,
I won't be thinking so much over some people,
I won't be worrying what will happen in my future,
I need not to think bout what will my future be like
I won't be here crapping all these stuff....complaining...which made everyone feel annoyed, including me..=(
boo you!

how nice huh? to be a lil gal again.=)

2009-04-28T09:12:00.003Z

A Place for Two

At times tears of joy and sadness comes together, which made people feel extremely confused of what is the meaning of this. uh,..? don't ask me, me myself can't find the possible reasonable anwer. anywho...it just sucks to be at a place, when that place contained deep meaning to you, and yea, mayb..............to someone else. but what bothers you most is that you found out that, it is shared with someone else besides you and another person let's say A. and the other person is B. get it? oh so, yea, it saddens you actually. why oh why, a place belongs to you and me, okay, was belonged, and now to another person, B? it is not possible for anyone human beings that have feelings for not knowing how does it feels, right?
no, im not angry nor am i sad, im curious to know why on earth there're ppl that feels nothing of things they had done or said. not only to me, but to other ppl that are facing the similar situation as me. it is already the past, no point in bringing things up again, this i noe. this thing just popped up in my head. no one can ever say: " oh i forgotten what had happened, yeah! " uh..it is just not possible ryte?

" you're like a statue carved into my heart" " you're like the gem in my life"

falling in love is that easy?? falling out of love is even easier? what do you think?
tell me! seriously, i don't think it is easy for both of this to happen. " I love you" oh so easy to be said, or written. I literally thinks that it takes much effort and time to haf smtg as intimate as this to build up, to be strong. so why do ppl make it seems to be smtg easy? It is NOT.

i had been really blind, extream kind of way. unblind me ppl.!

2009-04-26T15:23:00.004Z

the missing puzzle. if u can't find it, seems like it'll be gone forever. so long for the work that u've done to find for the missing piece. or...even the missing pieces.

it is no more the picture perfect one that u once had before. You put every pieces together, wat sux is that ur picture perfect had been crashed and ruined. Thus, you go all ways to find back all the missing pieces. NO NO NO...those that u'd found are not the ones that u want. REJECT!

finally, you found out, the similar picture had been build up by another person. you cn never find back the missing pieces. you were adviced to give up in finding them bcuz everyone knws it is impossible that u'll ever have the chance to find them back. you give up.

you hear your inner voice telling you, " my dear, give up don't find it anymore. u noe it is impossible to find them back.just move on and build up another picture, get another nicer puzzle." you tried so hard, by forcing urself to not find them. along the journey, you had urself cut, hurt..and wounded. you seek help along the way, you were given lots of helping hands..to heal ur wound, unfortunately they leave scars. deep deep scars. you don't mind. so what? they're just scars.

until one day, u realised, the puzzle you wanted which was made by the other person made it happier, and mayb, even more beautiful than the one u once had. and so u think, is it better by letting it be happy and more beautiful? the truth is, YES!

finally, u come to ur senses, you give up.praying that this puzzle will last. and give a much happier life for everyone compared to the one u had/lost.

Do not ruin the puzzle that u happily make.

let it be as beautiful as it is now for the coming days...

Procrastinating

2009-04-22T18:37:00.002Z

the title says it all

if only only only.......

i can do that without feeling guilty

Lavenders

2009-04-19T18:05:00.003Z

Lavenders

I lOVEY

hope to see them one day=)

they're just so.........................

BEAUTIFUL!

Forgive and will not Forget

2009-04-19T17:00:00.001Z

Things haf been really messy, gone haywire. sad huh.. having ur life all messed up cause of someone, and the worst part of this is that that person doesn't give a damn to what happens to u. oh no..thats not the worst part, the Worst part is you being oh-so-stubborn to be siding that person when the entire world is telling you to forget...telling you that that person is not worth for you to think of...etc. etc. etc...oh please! i am no robot..i can't forget it's not tat easy. hit the "delete' button and shooo to everything? i wished i cud do that, but sadly..no.
I'm giving my best to let go.what sux the most is when you recall on everything. urgh..everything starts tumbling down on u..and that'll reli haunt u for days,yea.. i tell ya...days!!!
sigh.....
so what if i feel this way..? so what? the only thing that will happen is me making my friends and family worried and myself sad. uh....what for ryte?

i was told that the one thing that human can't lost is relationships regardless of what kind of relationship- family, friends, gf/bf..any kind of relationship. Once broken, it feels like hell, everything seems so dark... don't you think so? it is true noe... you can lost you car, ur keys, ur, ur shoes,anything you owned.....but....
hey u can still get them back ryte? but not for relationships... let's say..ur relationship wit ur family breaks off..how do you feel about that?umm... what about friends?don't tell me you'll not feel anything when u had an awful arguement wit ur bestie? how do u feel?? and gosh...what about gf/bf? don't lemme start off with that..
so yea, relationship is like the worse thing to lose. it'll take u FOREVER to mend that bond..it 'll take u FOREVER to heal the pain..sigh..
why do we want to make ourselves miserable for destroying things that meant something to us?

yes, no one is perfect! duh~ and yea, we do make mistakes. stupid stupid mistakes..and some of them are mistakes that u can't turn back. what i wanna say is we just gotta take these mistakes, these bad experience as a medicine for us to grow. umm...i don't noe whether 'medicine' is a rite word to use..err.....u get wat i wana say ryte? hope so!

mmhmm...it is through these bumps, these pains, these horrible needles that helped us to grow up, OPEN our eyes!
I'm dare say im one of them that reli need to grow out from this pain tho it is not easy and it is killing me but i just haf to!hmm...i wonder how some ppl can do that so easily..

the best part of this is that, along ur healing process, u'll realised the beauty ppl around you that cared so much for u.=) they're always thr..i love them!
they're like my guardian angels hahaa...look! i don't need an orange guardian angel..
pain..tears...sadnesss...they're just negative effects yea.
you know what, i don't wana care nor think so much of that pain...i want you to be happy, sounds pathetic, but this is all that i can asked for from u.

i Dare to say i'm WILLING to forgive u..but it'll take forever to forget. but i will try ok.

hahaha! no worrieesss....im not gonna kill meself..i haf much better things to do ryte? =)
alrytte then, til the next post, bye ~

love
viv

2009-04-05T09:21:00.002Z

And so today i woke up extremely early-7am. excuse me...waking up at 7 on sundays is considered as really early. so why do i wake up tis early? =) Yvonne invited me to her church. mmhmm church. all this while i thought, hey her church must be more or less the same as the ones i went before. but omg! when i reached thr..outside looked simply plan it's jz one factory lik building, but when i once step foot in that building...i was amazed seriously amazed by it. inside is lik a concert stadium.seriously it is like a mini stadium. whoa!!! sorry, no pic were taken.
i love it..i seriously like the feeling thr. the warmth everyone gave me. they welcome me=) ahaha..and guess wat, even the nigerians talked to me, welcomed me=) tat kind feeling feels great.i've not been well, um..mentally well for so freaking long..i dare not step out of the pain i dealed with. i tend to lie to myself on wat happened to run away from the pain. wat sux most is, the more i do tat, the deeper i got cut. ystd was horrible..i kept telling myself 'vivian! get out from tis nightmare get out!!! u're stronger than anyone think u are...' and today, i realised why am i torturing my soul for one person? why do i wanna torture my soul for some one tat doesn't understand how much pain he had caused me? why do i wana torture myself for him while he is happily out thr wit someone else? it's not worth my tears not a single drop but i teared for him for mths, yes mths! Do i wana go on like tis? no! no! NO! tho i the pain will nt go away jz like tat, but i noe..if im willingly to walk away i will see the better side other than tat dark side. if i'm willingly to make tat turn than to continue walking blindly, i'll see a rainbow, tho the journey to turn, the courage needed to seems to be too much for me, but if only if only im willingly to take up the pain i will succeed in turning awya tat horrible horrible path tat had been killing my soul. wish me luck,ppl...i haf to endure the pain, of jz turning away..nvr look back as it is reli reli reli nt worth it to stay back and cry over someone that will nt be thr for u.

oh so..the church was amazing. The pastor made me realised that life is not jz now..no...it is more than that so so so much more than what we are looking, wat we haf now.

love
viv

2009-04-04T07:46:00.002Z

Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON..I will try to learn from tis. whatever it takes to make myself come out from the dark.

True friends: How many people actually have 8 true friends?
I may not know how true are my friends, but i noe that i haf wonderful great friends. friends that jumps up with much advices and care whenever i need them.=)

2009-04-03T08:19:00.002Z

My friends tried to protect me from not telling things they know about you. In the end, i was still hurt by you by finding out myself. Yes it was killing inside of me. Many questions popped in my mind asking so so so many whys... but why? why do i wana ask when i noe, i'll nver be answered.
it is indeed out of my expectation tat the one person tat i actually have much much feelings for did this. no..in fact, it's not tat serious yea, u think. but then...u gave me hope. useless hope. i've been reli silly reli reli silly... silly til tat extend, i noe it can nver be wat i wanted, but i still put on tat hope. the thing, person tat i cherish so much break me so badly. how can i be okay with it?
in the end...it is still still nothing. empty.
and i'll leave it k..i can't take in anymore. hopes...love? nah-ah..i'm nt that strong.
ive been unbelivably scary to u, i noe. i frighten u..til u dare not even wannt to talk to me. im sorry. i don't want any of this to happen to. i just cudn't take it. if only u understand.
i can't understand u..from now onwards. all this while u're always the one good guy. that guy that joke to make me laugh, the guy that tries to cheer me up and when he failed to do so, he gets upset, the guy tat treats me like a princess, the guy tat i nvr nvr nvr nvr will think of him of leaving me, and the guy tat im worried of that i'll hurt him..but then..now..
where's he? he'll nvr be that guy anymore, i like tat guy...but u dun seem to be him anymore. i trully belief tat u did not change at all..from the very begining. i was reli mad mad mad at myself for putting so much emotions whenever i talk to u. if not things will nt be like tis yea.

whatever i say now has lost its meaning. it is just nothing.
let's jz hope i cn put all these down. and u...you'll haf a better future from now onwards.

2009-04-01T16:29:00.002Z

Love?

Do u know wat love is?

Love is always patient and kind,

it is never jealous,

Love is never boastful and conceided,

it is never rude nor selfish,

it does not take offence

it is not resentful

love doesnt mean u must own that one person or must it be boy girl relation.Many ppl take love as boy girl relation kind of love. why...haf everyone of u forgotten family love? friendship love?
yeah yeah...not many ppl knows hw to express tis kind of love. but haf u tried doin it? no, i guess. true love...hmm..parents love are pure, tats wat i trully belief. who won't ryte? haha.
anyways...boy-girl relation kinda love? it does exist, it does. just tat...sometimes, we just don't haf the fate? fate to own/be together with tat one person u love. sigh..yea sucky huh? but wat cn we do about tat? beg for love? no! tat kinda love u receive won't be true, impure. so i thought,
hey, to love is great but expect less or shud i say, DON'T EXPECT. sigh...
it hurts i noe, and yea, kinda dumb, but.......well, bear wit it i guess...sigh~

My point is.....

!Uncondition love!

yea tats my point.

check out tis video. tells more about it...family lurve~

enjoy!

http://www.youtubVJMbk9dtpdYe.com/watch?v=

2009-03-30T08:23:00.004Z

Happy 19th Birthday, Tan Bee Ting!!! =)

yeap, the title says it all.

so plans were made to surprise her. a Great one i must say. And everyone cn tell she was terrible touched by this surprise, thanks to particularly Siok Im. She seriously made tis extremely amazing for bting=).

Dear Bting,

Hope u had a blast tat saturday( 28th Feb 09') . All of us love u loads=) *cheers* haha..

wishing u all the best in your days ahead.

oh oh..i bet u'll NVER forget this very day. *tears of joy* hahha..

FOR YOU!

...Friendship stays forever and ever...
with no expectations and hopes

just

pure

FRIENDSHIP

2009-03-24T16:34:00.005Z

my oh my.. lookey here, situation i'm in is somehow similar to this guy. piles of books, well mine are piles of papers and books. sigh~ and guess what, AS is umm...at May and i'm not prepared at all. dammit. scary huh...

ah..forget bout tis for a min! I'm feeling homesick now. Can't wait to step mah foot in mah hse=) haha.

oh yea...I wanna say million of thank you to the ppl tat cared soo much bout me=) well, bout the condition im in.

*handing out a helping hand whenever you're not in the condition to face people*

My sister, Jo=)hehe

Sonia dear

Bting darling

Julie

Cha

Wendy

and...definitely

Mr. Tai=)

well these are the few that reli listens to me grambling and weep? and complained ? well, they're the ones that're thr for me whenever i need em'

thank you!!!

whatever happens in the future..or present...

i'm trully grateful to the friends i haf, even to those that i didn't mention above=) atleast, i'm still abled to pour my heart and soul to them, rather than cramping myself all up soaking my pillow

signing off..

Viv

2009-03-13T17:06:00.002Z

Sonia, Bee Ting, Rachel, Karen, Cheu Ling..oh oh and yes, Liwei( too bad u're in Aus)

oh..i MISS you guys so much now! Me wanna go out with u girls..

I ain't likey staying here for the weeekends, made me so emotional.....

2009-03-13T15:45:00.003Z

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

This movie is to die for. Do watch it!

Extremely touching

Sonia, this movie ain't boring. =) true that it's kinda long, but extremely touching. Put in some emotions, dear.

"Do have the strength to start all over again."

2009-03-11T08:54:00.002Z

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

2009-03-10T15:30:00.002Z

"YOU are supposed to BE STUDYING

YOU are NOT supposed to BE PLAYING with UR LAPPIE"

urgh... that's what i have to remind myself EVERYDAY! imagine tat...sigh~
AS is darn bloody near..hello? 2 mths n few weeks..thats all! give me a break! umm..nono...don't give me breaks, i reli need the time!! dammit...i hav the time, but look, im wasting it here..sigh~

ciaoz...

CHEMistry is wasting for me...PHENOL!!

2009-03-02T15:06:00.003Z

在这个色彩缤纷的世界里，

我们苍白的活着。

我们欢乐的谈笑和交流，

可是同时怀着一颗不快乐的心。

为什么会这样？

渴望爱的，不敢付出；

得到爱者，却不在乎；

失去爱的，不愿放下；

因为我们没有认真活着。

认真的活着罢！

心中有爱，就敢去爱，

即使不说出来也没关系；

得到爱的，好好珍惜，

即使那麽一点滴，也是甜蜜；

失去了爱，就享受孤独吧！

即使不被爱，

也不需要折磨自己。

生命苦短，

如何希翼天长地久？

人心善变，

何必执著山盟海誓？

缘来缘去，

爱和孤独不就如若这光与暗交织的世界？

我们有的，

就只是现在。

也只有现在，

让我们有活着的感觉！

爱也好，孤独也好，

就是真真实实的经验！

过去的已经逝去，

未来的未必存在。

认真的生活，

无论有爱；还是无爱！

Happie BUrfdae !! ABCDEFG=D

2009-02-25T08:22:00.005Z

Goh Cheu Ling

Happy 19th Birthday!!!

*she's so gonna kill me if she find out me having this pic uploaded up here.haha..*

She's our so called hawt mama in the group, being all mama-ish. haha. has all the sense in style n fashion. oh oh most of all, she's all famous fer her......
you wanna noe?? shh! i cnt tell...she'll really kill me for tat.anyways, giv ya a tip-G! hahahaa...flip to 4 sc 1 n 2 class mag dedication section n u'll noe wat's tat=D

we're frenz fer um... let's see..since std 3! tho there're times when we dun click along n yes, unfortunately few disagreement and things lik tat happens along the way but, wtv happens, we're still close and wat we are now is much more important yea! that's wat we ppl are looking at, now, not the past=)

Wishing You a

WONDERFUL BLESSFUL BIRTHDAY!!!

DO ENJOY, DEAR=)

hugs n kisses

.. love you always..=P

P/s: this post sound kinda wrong~, we're jz close buddies yea..hahahaaaaa

2009-02-24T15:27:00.003Z

oh look at how dearly sonia is decomposing.haha. while i'm here struggling to study. having such a long holiday ain't tat funny too yea. how much she wishes to switch place with me.haha.

oh darn! i'm not reli studying here. kill me! seriously, now's not the time for fooling around yet i am. n now i'm sick! um..soon to be alryte, but was sick.=( cough flu fever...whoo~ haven't been tis sick fer...um...shooo long! i'm healthy! hahaha...
..it all started after tat fri( 20feb09')..

screw tat! i'm not gonna be sick anymore!!! yeap..i'm not!sigh~
being sick here alone seriously not a good thing to experience...

ouh~

Physics' gettin' soo much tougher, same goes to Chemistry. and A2 Mathematics' sux at the same time. and and...what makes tis even Uglier...is AS's getting soo much closer! which is like umm...77 more days to go. if i screw up AS im soo goonna screw up A-lvel and tat's like the worse thing can eva happen to all A-lvl students. noboday wants tat! na-ah~

life's such a bore to be studying WHOLE day...umm..it'll be too, for not doing anything whole day, just like wat sonia does. haha

oh well...bear with it fer a year n i'll be oh-so free..haha!!

Valentine's day

2009-02-15T15:41:00.003Z

14th February.
never had it happily.
once..
form3, some idiot sent some stupid idiotic sms with foul languages for some unreasonable reason.wth!

other than that, was like other normal day...

this year supposed to be a great one, i mean it great, but...

celebrated with my darliings=)
oh no, im nt saying celebrating V-day with them ain't great, it was it was..
just wasnt....well, im sure they understand what i mean.
anyways..
celebrating v-day with ur frenz ain't that bad.=)
was actually comforting

thanks gals..
.love u ppl loads.

once, one of the BEST fairytale

2009-02-10T14:53:00.004Z

strikes again!

yes, it strikes again. with much dismay. sigh. I have no idea, why can't things like this just pass on, need not to feel. Wouldn't it be great? I personally think it will! Unfortunately, things like this will only happen in your dreams. umm, nah-ah, dreams are nightmares too! They turned out to be nightmare in your dream and obviously in reality.
oh c'mon! When will this stop?! It's taking me like forever and yes , it is torturing me! Oh, should I say "thank you"? sigh.
Why can't human be borned without feelings? *oops, i shouldn't said tat*
newayz...it is just the feeling of not wanting to feel. Get what i mean?
Your presence haunt me. It'd been soo long, why am I still hanging in such a way. I want a life wei..
Once, i believed in Long-lasting, and guessed what, my friends expected it to. but who'd expected this...NO ONE! sigh~ i missed it. and i regret for failin it.
what's the point now yea.
pathetic!

2009-02-10T12:03:00.000Z

The night was my Kingdom, my heaven of peace

2009-02-07T15:59:00.002Z

i'm not feelin well(happy) now. not even a tiny bit.
still haunts me, n this feeling reli don't feel good at all.
makes me so sad
makes me so mad
at myself and not-myself

it is long enuf, and i shud be feeling all well, but i am NOT!

2009-02-05T09:08:00.016Z

they're the ppl that comforts u n bring much joy to your life.

tho we ppl dun talk much bout our problems, but when we talk, we really talk=)

n when you're having much downs, having them around you seriously do make you feel better!

you tend to forget the rainy days

love em'...=)

us against the world

2009-02-05T06:18:00.002Z

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more
I would still have you, baby
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war
I'll be fighting with you, baby

Cause I know if I'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground
If the boat is sinking, I know you won't let me drown

No matter what anyone could say
This is the only place for me
And no one could ever take that away
Nothing could come between us

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you

Because it's us against the world
The world, the world
You know it's us against the world
The world, the world, ohh

Now if I'm lost at sea 7 days I'm not alone
If I'm holding you, you, you, you, you
And if it all end's, everybody in the world is gone
I'll be standing with you, baby

And if it's the last breath I takeI'll leave my kiss my with you
If there's a wall between us, baby
I know I'll break through

No matter what anyone could say
This is the only place for me
And no one could ever take that away
Nothing could come between us

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you
Because it's us against the world

Nothing's stronger now than you and I
Cause your love is all I got
And this ain't never gon' stop

No, whoa
There's no distance here when we're apart
Come on in from the cold
Lay your head on my shoulder
Ride like a soldier
I'm a stay right here

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you

Because it's us against the world
The world, the world
You know it's us against the worldThe world, the world, ohh
[Repeat]

*nice song=)*

2009-01-14T08:47:00.002Z

I just have to stop thinking! dammit..
i see u thr, u turned. yet i stil want to see u. what are u planning?
torture me?!
friends....